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I jsut couldnt do it. I couldnt go. I couldnt see him. Not today. Not how he si right now. Not how I AM RIGHT NOW. hellllllllo BIPOLAR. Even if everything was normal. Its still hard to see him. I hate it I have this boy this wonderful wonderful boy. But he still gets to my thoughts.
So instead tonight Jessica Kyle and I went out and decide to have some old fashion fun. We went were driving around when I was like fuck we should totally go to the mall. So we did. I walk in. "CASEYYYYY!" "PATCHES!" Big hugs. And then this swarm of black flies my way and out from it came this short ugly juggalo who I love sooo much. remmington. The crew was back. There was chry and fuzzy and michele and juice and robby and all of them. Everyone was their tonight. It was amazing. And Alex was like "hey baby i have a present for you" It was some jack damiels. Thatw as amazing. the mall tonight was amazing.
Then we went to applebees where massive amounts of kids that preted they know me kept trying to talk to me. I was drunk and told them to fuck off.
So on a darker note I'm miserably in love. I just keep getting these thoughts that i shouldnt be with him. Not now. Im not supposed to love. I cant handle love. It chould just be the bipolar mode swingas and DEEP states of depression i keep falling into. But for some reason as much as I love him it hurts me to be with him. I jsut dont get it.
So instead tonight Jessica Kyle and I went out and decide to have some old fashion fun. We went were driving around when I was like fuck we should totally go to the mall. So we did. I walk in. "CASEYYYYY!" "PATCHES!" Big hugs. And then this swarm of black flies my way and out from it came this short ugly juggalo who I love sooo much. remmington. The crew was back. There was chry and fuzzy and michele and juice and robby and all of them. Everyone was their tonight. It was amazing. And Alex was like "hey baby i have a present for you" It was some jack damiels. Thatw as amazing. the mall tonight was amazing.
Then we went to applebees where massive amounts of kids that preted they know me kept trying to talk to me. I was drunk and told them to fuck off.
So on a darker note I'm miserably in love. I just keep getting these thoughts that i shouldnt be with him. Not now. Im not supposed to love. I cant handle love. It chould just be the bipolar mode swingas and DEEP states of depression i keep falling into. But for some reason as much as I love him it hurts me to be with him. I jsut dont get it.