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Even though I didnt create this problem, it feels like I may have brought it on. Too much meditation on negative, qliphotic elements. Am I really working towards my own destruction and destruction of everything around me? Those childish fantasies in my teenage years mature into nightmarish realities. I got exactly what I wanted, but at what price? I feel corrupted and broken. and I have a fucking headache. the ongoing mission continues. I will be more wary next time. I will be free.