couples_therapy: 7.1 - Meet the family
When Doug and I were together the first time, I was with the Brotherhood. The Brotherhood was my family. We always talked about maybe getting together, for dinner or something, so that I could introduce him officially to Magneto. I think he met Toad and Rogue, separately, at some social functions that we attended with some friends. But we never did do that dinner thing together. Magneto was a part of my family, and I never did officially introduce Doug to him, not as my Doug.
I'll be honest. I can be honest about that, now. I didn't want to. I didn't want to drag Doug into that lifestyle. I don't know, maybe it was something deep down in me that just wanted to protect him. I knew it was a dangerous lifestyle. I knew what Magneto did to his soldiers as a form of discipline. I knew that Magneto would welcome Doug into the Brotherhood with open arms. And I tried to keep him from that, as much as I could. I kept him from my family, and I kept my family away from my boyfriend.
The thing was, it was a completely subconscious thing. Doug is free to make his own choices, of course, come to his own decisions. I wasn't trying to keep them apart, not actively or with intent, it just sort of worked out that way.
I don't know what that means, or what that says, and I don't particularly want a bunch of bullshit analyzing of that situation. But, in retrospect, I think it's a testament to... what I was willing to do for him. If I would have looked at it closer, before, I would have known just how far I was willing to go for him.
And now I don't have that family. I'm dead to them. They wouldn't give me a second glance now.
I do have my very few close friends, and those are the people that I want Doug to meet. Some of them, he has, and he's friends with them too, like Jean-Paul and Terry and Mike. There's a couple he doesn't know very well or not at all, like Sasha and Sally and Bea, and I want them to meet someday. I want him to know them. They're the closest thing I have to a family, now, and I want them to know the guy I talk about so much, and care about so much, and who really is my family.
I'll be honest. I can be honest about that, now. I didn't want to. I didn't want to drag Doug into that lifestyle. I don't know, maybe it was something deep down in me that just wanted to protect him. I knew it was a dangerous lifestyle. I knew what Magneto did to his soldiers as a form of discipline. I knew that Magneto would welcome Doug into the Brotherhood with open arms. And I tried to keep him from that, as much as I could. I kept him from my family, and I kept my family away from my boyfriend.
The thing was, it was a completely subconscious thing. Doug is free to make his own choices, of course, come to his own decisions. I wasn't trying to keep them apart, not actively or with intent, it just sort of worked out that way.
I don't know what that means, or what that says, and I don't particularly want a bunch of bullshit analyzing of that situation. But, in retrospect, I think it's a testament to... what I was willing to do for him. If I would have looked at it closer, before, I would have known just how far I was willing to go for him.
And now I don't have that family. I'm dead to them. They wouldn't give me a second glance now.
I do have my very few close friends, and those are the people that I want Doug to meet. Some of them, he has, and he's friends with them too, like Jean-Paul and Terry and Mike. There's a couple he doesn't know very well or not at all, like Sasha and Sally and Bea, and I want them to meet someday. I want him to know them. They're the closest thing I have to a family, now, and I want them to know the guy I talk about so much, and care about so much, and who really is my family.