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[john_gaunt]

watching daylight fade and snow fall
i wonder many things
what you're doing, where you are
if i am gonna be a fool
or am i just killing myself inside
i damage myself so much
the last four days have been
hellish and unending
miss you so much
am i crazy?

seems like i always end it
doing the wrong thing
while trying not to

why do i get so wound up
can't see the forest for the trees
i don't play games
so why does everyone else seem to?

self destruction seems so easy
been there too much lately
though not like days of old
thank the great spirit for that

over analysis
reading into things
tying myself in knots
boxing myself in