Playing Catch Up: Four Topics:Heartache, $2,000, Getting Drunk, Vulnerability
1> Does heartache make you stronger?
If it does, I should be superman by now. Stronger than steel or something like that. My life has been a never ending string of heartaches. I'm not sure it's made me stronger, but...I don't know. I don't know how to answer this question.
2>If you won the equivalent of $2,000, and had to spend it, what would you spend it on?
I'd send it to Kem. Or I'd buy equiptment for Kem.
3> What happened the first time you got drunk?
What happened? Let's see. That night was one of the few times I remember my father paying attention to me. The way he looked at me, I knew he saw me, John, and not Bobby's brother.
I was his only living son, his only hope for the future. And I'd disappointed him completely. He didn't say a word to me, he didn't lay a hand on me. He looked at me and then he looked away.
I went upstairs to my room and puked until I couldn't puke any more. And then I stayed in bed for three days.
4>What makes you feel vulnerable and what makes you feel invulnerable, and why?
Life. Living. Being alive. Loving. Being loved. Work. being a doctor. Saving livces. Losing lives.
Mostly I feel vulnerable. I feel vulnerable because I am alive. I've seen enough, I've been through enough, to know I'm not invulnerable. Even when I think I am, I'm not. Living is hard, living hurts. Just getting up in the morning, I feel vulnerable to a million things.
If it does, I should be superman by now. Stronger than steel or something like that. My life has been a never ending string of heartaches. I'm not sure it's made me stronger, but...I don't know. I don't know how to answer this question.
2>If you won the equivalent of $2,000, and had to spend it, what would you spend it on?
I'd send it to Kem. Or I'd buy equiptment for Kem.
3> What happened the first time you got drunk?
What happened? Let's see. That night was one of the few times I remember my father paying attention to me. The way he looked at me, I knew he saw me, John, and not Bobby's brother.
I was his only living son, his only hope for the future. And I'd disappointed him completely. He didn't say a word to me, he didn't lay a hand on me. He looked at me and then he looked away.
I went upstairs to my room and puked until I couldn't puke any more. And then I stayed in bed for three days.
4>What makes you feel vulnerable and what makes you feel invulnerable, and why?
Life. Living. Being alive. Loving. Being loved. Work. being a doctor. Saving livces. Losing lives.
Mostly I feel vulnerable. I feel vulnerable because I am alive. I've seen enough, I've been through enough, to know I'm not invulnerable. Even when I think I am, I'm not. Living is hard, living hurts. Just getting up in the morning, I feel vulnerable to a million things.