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great eyeve spoke...eye ruined knot only sumthing more then a phrend ship but the phrend ship it self...eye ruined migh chances of ever phinding happiness...eyem starting to believe that music is just another thing eyell never accomplish...migh self confidence is lower then ever...eye dotn even have education to phall back on...kno phamily support...eye have to buy cigarettes...kno job...religion has been reduced to almost notihng...eye have kno drive to dew anytihng with anyone to help anyone but migh selph...every one around me who once claimed to care about me has started hating me completely...migh only last chance despises me...alchohol has never seemd sew beautiful...loving some one huts way more then the loneliness ( knot like eye know or understand love) eyem immature...innappropiate and a hypocritical bastard...eye hate migh selph and love every one else...eveyr phrend has become an aquiantance...eyem disgusting...the best coversation eye had everr had was about how mutch eyen knot worth anything...know one will everr have tine phor me...migh lyricising means notihng...its 2:44 a.m. and eyem still writting in this thing a siph any one cares...eye cant sleep and cant stay awake...eye have kno goals...eyeve ruined everytihng eyeve had tho it wasnt mutch it seemed to keep me alive this long now eye dotn even have that...eyeve never been that comphortable...it made her sick...she can move on at least