truth_or_dare #25: Truth
Discuss something you haven't done and explain what's holding you back.
Tried to find and/or speak to Magneto.
In one week, it's the one year anniversary. The one year anniversary since I was approached by the Freedom Force with a deal that would trade the Brotherhood in for my boyfriend's (and my own) freedom. The one year anniversary since my mom died. The one year anniversary since I decided that, yes, I would turn into spy and traitor and betray my work, my Cause, my family and my life.
By the end of January, it will the one year anniversary since I did just that, betrayed them and turned them all in, sent them to WeaponX (even though I didn't know it) and plastic prisons and brought them down. One year since I left Pyro behind to become John Allerdyce.
It's been a long fucking year.
There are reasons why I should try to find and/or speak to Magneto. Lots of them. Good ones and bad ones and ones that will maybe help me move on and get over shit. I can't get into them; no one understands. And everyone would take it the wrong way anyway. I bet they already are.
But there are reasons I WON'T, will not, do not want to and never will, try to go and find and/or speak to Magneto.
1) I am NOT Brotherhood anymore. I don't want to be. I don't want to be associated with Magneto, or his Cause, so I know to stay the fuck away from him, and so I will.
2) It could provoke him some way. And that could mean danger for not only me but for those close to me, and my new 'cause' (dangerous of me to use that word, I know), and the new life I'm trying to build for myself.
3) He'd kill me.
All those are valid reasons, but you know what? I'm actually a chicken shit. It's that last one that seals the non-speaking/looking deal. I died once already this year, but came back. I don't want to for good.
I think it's best I leave this one alone. And so I will.
Tried to find and/or speak to Magneto.
In one week, it's the one year anniversary. The one year anniversary since I was approached by the Freedom Force with a deal that would trade the Brotherhood in for my boyfriend's (and my own) freedom. The one year anniversary since my mom died. The one year anniversary since I decided that, yes, I would turn into spy and traitor and betray my work, my Cause, my family and my life.
By the end of January, it will the one year anniversary since I did just that, betrayed them and turned them all in, sent them to WeaponX (even though I didn't know it) and plastic prisons and brought them down. One year since I left Pyro behind to become John Allerdyce.
It's been a long fucking year.
There are reasons why I should try to find and/or speak to Magneto. Lots of them. Good ones and bad ones and ones that will maybe help me move on and get over shit. I can't get into them; no one understands. And everyone would take it the wrong way anyway. I bet they already are.
But there are reasons I WON'T, will not, do not want to and never will, try to go and find and/or speak to Magneto.
1) I am NOT Brotherhood anymore. I don't want to be. I don't want to be associated with Magneto, or his Cause, so I know to stay the fuck away from him, and so I will.
2) It could provoke him some way. And that could mean danger for not only me but for those close to me, and my new 'cause' (dangerous of me to use that word, I know), and the new life I'm trying to build for myself.
3) He'd kill me.
All those are valid reasons, but you know what? I'm actually a chicken shit. It's that last one that seals the non-speaking/looking deal. I died once already this year, but came back. I don't want to for good.
I think it's best I leave this one alone. And so I will.