lets start by saying....
My life continues to spiral out of control.. my mom has found my most secret item i have. My notebook.. it tells about her my boyfriend and all the things we have done together... so now i feel like my mom hates me... I have been livin with my grandma for a couple of weeks now and i like it so much more than living with my mom and stepdad and it feels weird that i have to move back home soon and i dont feel like it.. another thing that is eating me up inside is that... my mom feels like she must have my stepdad to survive and she doesnt need him but you cannot tell her anything.. I hate to feel crappy like this and i know my mom means well but there is still the fact that my stepdad hit my mom while we were away and he gave her a black eye.. and she told me she "ran into his elbow" yeah right. i don't know i feel miserable i wish sometimes that i would just die and i wouldnt have to feel the pain that i feel now. but for now i must go because i am getting ready to cry and i dont want to cry anymore.. much love jasmine