Yea.. its a good thing.
I guess it's a good thing to feel useless from time to time, or we wouldn't ever feel good about being useful. Either way I hate the feeling I have every morning when I wake up, and I sure would like to feel that sense of usefulness I never really got. I would like to meet people who are as passionate about being passionate as I am, and are stuck in the same boat as I, surrounded by people who are not passionate. The twist to this whole thing.. is finding the same people like me.
The people who are passionately passionate about being passionate, and do nothing towards achieving their goal of being passionate towards a specific thing rather than being passionate. Thats right! I said it!
I'm a walking fucking hypocrite! I'm so passionate about being passionate... i don't even know what I want to be passionate about. I just want that feeling i have about being passionate to reflect on something in my own life. When I try to be passionate towards other people in my life, i just get pushed away. So.. i say fuck it. I give up with people. I say FUCK FISH! I say, good day sir.
I tried the nice thing.. did it work? Nope. I do the mean thing.. does it work? Nope. I tried the positive thing.. was let down too much.. tried the negative thing.. depresses me too much. So now what do i try? I suppose I just float(sort of).. walking 6 inches underwater instead of sinking and walking on top. I'm done with this depression shit, I give that to the people who really need it. I'm afraid of the happy shit, those people scare the fuck out of me!
I guess this whole thing sums up to me just being a normal person, and I really just need more normal people around in my life. I shoot for unrealistic goals expecting sub par, and I just hope things fall together how I wish them to be. Feels good to be back, just wish I had someone to share it with.
"All of that shit in life: Bills, Love, School, Work.. all of it. That shit's for suckers!"
-Steve (aka Gweedo)
The people who are passionately passionate about being passionate, and do nothing towards achieving their goal of being passionate towards a specific thing rather than being passionate. Thats right! I said it!
I'm a walking fucking hypocrite! I'm so passionate about being passionate... i don't even know what I want to be passionate about. I just want that feeling i have about being passionate to reflect on something in my own life. When I try to be passionate towards other people in my life, i just get pushed away. So.. i say fuck it. I give up with people. I say FUCK FISH! I say, good day sir.
I tried the nice thing.. did it work? Nope. I do the mean thing.. does it work? Nope. I tried the positive thing.. was let down too much.. tried the negative thing.. depresses me too much. So now what do i try? I suppose I just float(sort of).. walking 6 inches underwater instead of sinking and walking on top. I'm done with this depression shit, I give that to the people who really need it. I'm afraid of the happy shit, those people scare the fuck out of me!
I guess this whole thing sums up to me just being a normal person, and I really just need more normal people around in my life. I shoot for unrealistic goals expecting sub par, and I just hope things fall together how I wish them to be. Feels good to be back, just wish I had someone to share it with.
"All of that shit in life: Bills, Love, School, Work.. all of it. That shit's for suckers!"
-Steve (aka Gweedo)