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Woke up this morning with parents pounding on my door for no damned reason. I hate when they do that. I dunno, once I had a shower and some coffee I was fine. Went to school and had a sub for Media Studies. The stupid bitch took at least 10 minutes opening the door. I hated her even though that was the first time I saw her. Watching a Woody Allen movie in English which is pretty cool. It's long so it'll take the rest of the week! Worked today. Listened to some good beats. For a few hours I actually felt good.
I dunno, the last couple of months haven't been fun at all. Winter plays a big part in that; only get to skate like every Sunday at 4 Seasons (go on Sundays 2nd session I'll hopefully be there). That's been gettin me down a lot. School fucking sucks. I already hate it and it's only Tuesday. Hell, I hated it yesterday first hour. Whatever, once it's over my life'll be a little better I guess.
I'd like to take this opportunity to say I'm an idiot. I poured this nice glass of vodka and made a hamburger. I got like 1/3 of the way through the glass before I remembered that I worked. Fucking sucked, but my dumbshitness doesn't stop there. I poured the rest down the drain!!! That's right not into the bottle to be used later. I'm so dumb. Oh well.
Shit hasn't been going that well. I feel like I just keep getting screwed over by everyone and everything. I feel like shit. I mean I don't even know if anyone reads this. This whole combination of things have just completely fucked with me, from the past and present, and I HATE IT. I wish I could just forget it all, or not be affected by all of it; but I am, so I have to deal with it. It doesn't go away (at least it hasn't yet). I dunno I think I just have horrible self-esteem problems or something. Not always though, mostly in the evening or when I'm talking to certain people. It's not their fault though.
So now I'm sure everyone thinks I'm a whiny little pussy. And I'm sure that you're right about that if you think it. I act like an idiot a lot of the time; I'll say something I shouldn't've or not say something I should've. So most of the time I feel like I'm making an idiot out of myself.
I bet you're tired about listening to me whine and moan, so I'll shut up.
I dunno, the last couple of months haven't been fun at all. Winter plays a big part in that; only get to skate like every Sunday at 4 Seasons (go on Sundays 2nd session I'll hopefully be there). That's been gettin me down a lot. School fucking sucks. I already hate it and it's only Tuesday. Hell, I hated it yesterday first hour. Whatever, once it's over my life'll be a little better I guess.
I'd like to take this opportunity to say I'm an idiot. I poured this nice glass of vodka and made a hamburger. I got like 1/3 of the way through the glass before I remembered that I worked. Fucking sucked, but my dumbshitness doesn't stop there. I poured the rest down the drain!!! That's right not into the bottle to be used later. I'm so dumb. Oh well.
Shit hasn't been going that well. I feel like I just keep getting screwed over by everyone and everything. I feel like shit. I mean I don't even know if anyone reads this. This whole combination of things have just completely fucked with me, from the past and present, and I HATE IT. I wish I could just forget it all, or not be affected by all of it; but I am, so I have to deal with it. It doesn't go away (at least it hasn't yet). I dunno I think I just have horrible self-esteem problems or something. Not always though, mostly in the evening or when I'm talking to certain people. It's not their fault though.
So now I'm sure everyone thinks I'm a whiny little pussy. And I'm sure that you're right about that if you think it. I act like an idiot a lot of the time; I'll say something I shouldn't've or not say something I should've. So most of the time I feel like I'm making an idiot out of myself.
I bet you're tired about listening to me whine and moan, so I'll shut up.