a month's time
A lot has happened in a month's time. Bookstore basketball, the last day of classes, our toga party, meeting scary grad student Charlie (Such a hunk though who makes me giggle all the time).... It all flies by so quickly. What really strikes me about college is how much happens in just one evening. How friendships are fortified or broken. How returning home from the bar to 18033 C usually entails the recalling of how an entire evening's drama unfolded. It's difficult especailly when one is trying to sleep, but those are the moments that make our lives so colorful and how we only say boooooooring when for one minute our life lacks luster. I love that about college, but it also is hard on my heart.
Kyle used to yell at me about my large circles of friends and how I extended myself too far. It was more important to have some really good friends than tons of friends. That way you can focus your energy on the ones that really matter. I used to argue you with him extensibly on this. How it wasnt bad and how I could handle it perfectly. And most of the time I am so thankful I did have large groups of friends b/c when certains ones faltered, I wasn't left alone. Yet....as the days draw nearer to graduation, all of his words are beginning to resonate. We dont have much time here and now my broken friendships with the Indian boys will remain dented and bruised. Any other point in my life, I would be pushy to the point of being psycho about mending broken relationships. But now, there is no point. Some people darted in and out of my life and brought some amazing passion into it. But now, it's gone in a matter of three weeks. It's funny how quickly time passes. In a way, I feel fortunate that I feel this now versus later. How much would I regret my last few weeks if I didnt spend my time with the people I care about the most? AGD and the college park people are my family. I cant imagine my life without them. Even more so, our family is about to go through some significant changes and the community I live in now is floating away so fast I cant even grab onto it.
Im praying to God I get the fellowship. If I have something to look forward to, it will be the only thing that will get me through saying goodbyes. I am reminded of a quote that I thought of often after leaving high school. This quote anchors me to the iron truth that I will never be far from my circle of friends.
"A farewell is necessary before we can meet again, and meeting again, after moments or a lifetime is certain for those who are friends."
Kyle used to yell at me about my large circles of friends and how I extended myself too far. It was more important to have some really good friends than tons of friends. That way you can focus your energy on the ones that really matter. I used to argue you with him extensibly on this. How it wasnt bad and how I could handle it perfectly. And most of the time I am so thankful I did have large groups of friends b/c when certains ones faltered, I wasn't left alone. Yet....as the days draw nearer to graduation, all of his words are beginning to resonate. We dont have much time here and now my broken friendships with the Indian boys will remain dented and bruised. Any other point in my life, I would be pushy to the point of being psycho about mending broken relationships. But now, there is no point. Some people darted in and out of my life and brought some amazing passion into it. But now, it's gone in a matter of three weeks. It's funny how quickly time passes. In a way, I feel fortunate that I feel this now versus later. How much would I regret my last few weeks if I didnt spend my time with the people I care about the most? AGD and the college park people are my family. I cant imagine my life without them. Even more so, our family is about to go through some significant changes and the community I live in now is floating away so fast I cant even grab onto it.
Im praying to God I get the fellowship. If I have something to look forward to, it will be the only thing that will get me through saying goodbyes. I am reminded of a quote that I thought of often after leaving high school. This quote anchors me to the iron truth that I will never be far from my circle of friends.
"A farewell is necessary before we can meet again, and meeting again, after moments or a lifetime is certain for those who are friends."