I should really learn to lose my pyjamas before 1am.
I swear this feels excatly like summer vacation. Yesterday I was enjoying the afternoon at the terrace of our local pizza/kebab -place (gotta love that) and it was such an amazing feeling to have a hot pizza and a glass of water that has warmed in the sun in front of you while you're constanly forced to take off yet another jacket coz it's just too damn hot -seriously, when I closed my eyes I could make myself believe I'm somewhere far away enjoying the heat. Then, of course, when I was completely lost in my daydream my darling boyfriend felt it necessary to remind me not to worry, we'll definitely have snow again this spring. Oh, if looks could kill... if he hadn't paid for my pizza I would prabably have started to poke him with a fork, but I just didn't have the heart to do so. He had promised to cook dinner for me but unfortunately we made a crucial discovery at his home: there was no food there except frozen buns.
For the first time ever we both actually have some time off at the same time. Usually, when I have a little free time (oh God, I can't even remember whe that was) he's at work or or the other way around. Besides that I don't go to work, I went to school and tried to study as hard as I could but spectacularly failed in it. Well, he doesn't actually have a vacation but his school end around midday when I wake up so it's just the same... ^^ We kinda trying to take everything out of this rare situation coz soon I'll leave for Tampere to take part in a prep course so I'll be gone for a month (my poor mom has to organize my graduation party all alone and I'm telling you my family is huge) and he'll be at work for practically the whole summer. It has bene a lot of fun and hopefully will continue a little bit longer. :) Anyway, with who else would I hang out? I'm getting kinda distant with my friends since I don't see them every day at school anymore. I've actually realised that almost none of my friends have never been like super close to me, besides a few exceptions but there's no use crying after spilled milk, so I don't really manage to stay in touch with them. I do have a lot of time when I'm just on my own bored to death but, I don't know, it's hard to explain. I guess I've become extremely careful and even paranoid when it comes to relationships, and I mean any kind of relationships. Real trust issues. Perhaps it'll pass in time.
I haven't even hed the guts to go and ask about my matriculation examination results since I know I didn't do that well. My English a definite disaster, Swedish isn't far away from it. I apparently got something between an E and an M in social sciences (that could have gone a lot worse) and an M in Maths, which is great actually. My Finnish has a good chance to rise to an L and I already got an L in history, so perhaps this isn't the end of the world.
I know, I demand way too much of myself hence why I'm always so stressed out. You're looking at a walking talking heart attact in waiting.
For the first time ever we both actually have some time off at the same time. Usually, when I have a little free time (oh God, I can't even remember whe that was) he's at work or or the other way around. Besides that I don't go to work, I went to school and tried to study as hard as I could but spectacularly failed in it. Well, he doesn't actually have a vacation but his school end around midday when I wake up so it's just the same... ^^ We kinda trying to take everything out of this rare situation coz soon I'll leave for Tampere to take part in a prep course so I'll be gone for a month (my poor mom has to organize my graduation party all alone and I'm telling you my family is huge) and he'll be at work for practically the whole summer. It has bene a lot of fun and hopefully will continue a little bit longer. :) Anyway, with who else would I hang out? I'm getting kinda distant with my friends since I don't see them every day at school anymore. I've actually realised that almost none of my friends have never been like super close to me, besides a few exceptions but there's no use crying after spilled milk, so I don't really manage to stay in touch with them. I do have a lot of time when I'm just on my own bored to death but, I don't know, it's hard to explain. I guess I've become extremely careful and even paranoid when it comes to relationships, and I mean any kind of relationships. Real trust issues. Perhaps it'll pass in time.
I haven't even hed the guts to go and ask about my matriculation examination results since I know I didn't do that well. My English a definite disaster, Swedish isn't far away from it. I apparently got something between an E and an M in social sciences (that could have gone a lot worse) and an M in Maths, which is great actually. My Finnish has a good chance to rise to an L and I already got an L in history, so perhaps this isn't the end of the world.
I know, I demand way too much of myself hence why I'm always so stressed out. You're looking at a walking talking heart attact in waiting.