I dunno....
Well I haven't wrote in a lil bit so lemme fill you in..
I finished driving school and I should get my licens by the end of the month because I have to do 8 hours with an instructor and they don't have any openings until the later this month.. So I guess thats good, hopefully my parents buy me a car like they promised!
I'm trying to find me a job, I really need money. My parents have decided that I am old enough now to make my own money and since I'm getting my licens I will need money to pay for insurance and gas. And they say I need to make my own money.. But its their fault I'm spoiled they are the ones that have handed me EVERYTHING I've ever wanted, and now they decide I need a job.. How messed up is that! So if anyone knows anywhere that is hiring let me know, because I REALLY need a job!
Me n Joey.. Well just let me say last night was the worst night of my life!! I just wanted to freaking die last night.. Joey is soo mad at me and I don't even understand why! It's so stupid he thinks I lie to him, and it's over stupid stuff.. But I have news for him, he lies to me! And I catch him lying and I don't say anything to him because I love him so much I don't want to get anything started. I'd rather us just not even argue and I if I ever said anything to him he just get pissed at me and I hate it when he's mad at me. But here lately its seems like he's mad at me all the time. And it really hurts me! I love that boy so much and I know I'm only 16 but when I say I love him I really do mean it. And I really do want to spend the rest of my life with him. I want him to be the one to be the one there when I achieve my goals and I want him to be the one I run to with my problems and I want him to to be one there for me when I need him to the most. But here lately I dunno, it's like he doesn't want to be with me. And if he does he really needs to let me know cause the way things are going I don't think he loves me anymore! And I hate saying that cause I love him so much and I don't know what I'd do if I ever lost him! I've been with him for a year now and I honestly do not know what I'd do if he wasn't in my life, I wouldn't know how to act or live without him! I dunno whats goin on, but I wish Joey would really let me know, cause I just want all of our problems behind us and I just want us to be happy again! All I've done is cry these last couple days. I layed in bed last night and cried all night long I hardly got any sleep. And I was so happy this morning when Joey called me and told me he wasn't mad at me anymore, I was SO happy I just can't even explain how I felt. But after school when he called my cell phone he was mad at me again! I just don't know what to do! Maybe I'm supposed to always be upset like this.. I dunno, I just want me and Joey to work things out. I'm tired of cryin all night long and thinking the worst of things, cause I really think Joeys getting tired of me! But I really hope I'm wrong, cause I don't want to lose him. Hes my life!! and I love him with all my heart and soul, with everything I have.. But maybe I'm supposed to be unhappy! :-/ But I really hope Joey realizes how much he is hurting me and starts to see that I really do love him! And I always will no matter what! I just hope one day he realizes that!
Well thats all I have to say.. Maybe next time I write me and Joey will have worked everything out!!
I hope so!! :-/