Science Fiction Double Feature
During times like tonight I begin to re-examine my impact on society. I start to realize that I'm not just going to school to better myself, I'm also going to school to better other people's lives. That could be the most important part: having an impact on someone's life. I want to, one day, be a professional euphoniumist and inspire other young musicians. That would be a great feeling.
I was watching a show on The History Channel about Hurricane Katrina. I know that the media has a tendency to dramatize tragic events, but I can't help but feel extremely bad for all of the victims of that horrible disaster. I'm sitting here in my house drinking a nice cup of tea and watching TV and I'm also thinking about how these victims are searching for their families, trying to feed their newborns, trying to care for their elderly mothers and fathers, wanting to make sense out of their lives . . .
"No one said life was going to be fair," and that statement could not have a more important meaning . . . but who knew it would be so unfair. I can't watch this show anymore. It's not going to help anyone being emotional here.
So . . . young people. I've been witnessing too much young-mindedness lately. I'm not trying to raise myself up the ol' pedistool, it's just that seeing so many young ignorant/naive minds drives me a little bananas. I think that I'm too mature for my own age. As a result I don't often find strong connections with many people here because I (number one) view things a lot different then most do in this small, conservative, WEIRD town, and (number two) I not only have a mature mind to begin with, it continues to mature, and I continue to be mentally separated from those around me.
I guess I'm just more of a thinker; a rational thinker. I make it a point to understand the things that are important enough to understand. This world leaves a lot of things that are not meant to be understood, but if you expect to learn and grow AT ALL, then you need to understand what you can. With this in mind I wonder if people actually try to make sense of some things in life, or if they just ride the wave.
Although, there are times I think some people don't want to understand the truth behind anything because they're afraid. Fear holds them back. Fear is a strange and difficult thing to deal with, but when you have a life to live, why let fear of the truth stand in the way? I'm not implying that I fear nothing . . . I'm saying that there is a certain common sense that can be used productively when dealing with fear.
I am not the expert, but I have learned a few important lessons in twenty years. I keep my mind open to learning more and more because there is so much knowledge out there. I try not to be so afraid. I try not to be so blind.
Don't hurt yourself when you don't have to. Be who you are. Know that your emotions cannot rule your life. There needs to be a balance . . .