Lonely
I was sitting in school thinking all day...and I'm really lonely. At some points all I want is sex but I don't get any so I loose that mood...now I just want to be with someone. I really miss Christian, I know it's bad because of what he didn't tell me but deep down he was a good person, and I can see why he wouldn't say anything. He was probably just afraid. I know that he wasn't really after sex either just by the way that he acted around me. I would date him. Out of all the ppl that I've met...I like him alot. I know that I didn't date him but he's my type both physically and mentally. Oh well, what can you do. I'm house sitting with Elise this weekend. That's always alot of fun. I've been thinking of just going to Adult Ed when I turn 18. I can't take this school anymore, I can't stay focused enough to do my homework, I get to side tracked and my medicine that I'm taking for my A.D.D makes me tired and somewhat depressed and I just don't like to take it. I'm Failing like 2 or 3 of my classes already and it's not that I don't try, it's just when I try I end up getting frustrated and giving up. I don't know why but I can't stand it. I'm stressed out to my max already and the school year isn't even Half over. It's starting to suck...Wait...it already does suck. If I didn't have friends in this school, I would have given up already. I went looking at cars too, found a nice little Neon for $1,500. I like it and I have to save up for it. I guess my step dad will help me out and I will just pay him a certain amount back monthly. I really hope it works out because I know that my parents can't stand me not having a car, and I fucking hate it. I need it. Once you have a car...when you loose it your just stuck and you feel like your isolated in one spot forever. I hate it and I don't think that I can take it any longer. Well, it's almost time for me to go to bed. Till my next entry.