hope falling
It seems I keep forgetting to remember things... such as how desperate certain situations are. And when I give pause and let the weight of everything really sink in I feel as if I should do nothing but weep for the rest of eternity or poke my eyes out or sell everything I have and devote my life to missions. I'm thinking... a truly appropriate response would have to be something as dramatic and life-changing as the events that provoke it. That's what feels appropriate. Have I done anything remotely like that?
Life must go on, right? The forgetting part comes when I look out the window. Literally. I see LWK stalking a squirrel and I forget about how bad things are. Playing in the dirt at the stables. Reading a book. Getting my first 5 minute hug from Lydia. Planning vacations (ok, so some times I purposely try to distract myself). My point is... God puts all of this in my life and requires that I enjoy it, give praise for it, and get involved in it. So what do I do with the rest of it? Is it enough to just realize and accept how serious things are as we give them to the Lord? Is that the mystery of the secret place? That you hide your heart there with the Lord and He does a work that can't be described no matter how long I stare at this screen?
Hope hasn't actually fallen, I don't think. I just have to remember it.
Life must go on, right? The forgetting part comes when I look out the window. Literally. I see LWK stalking a squirrel and I forget about how bad things are. Playing in the dirt at the stables. Reading a book. Getting my first 5 minute hug from Lydia. Planning vacations (ok, so some times I purposely try to distract myself). My point is... God puts all of this in my life and requires that I enjoy it, give praise for it, and get involved in it. So what do I do with the rest of it? Is it enough to just realize and accept how serious things are as we give them to the Lord? Is that the mystery of the secret place? That you hide your heart there with the Lord and He does a work that can't be described no matter how long I stare at this screen?
Hope hasn't actually fallen, I don't think. I just have to remember it.