Loss and Thanksgiving
I had a nice Thanksgiving after all. Yes, I have morned the loss of one of my favorite 13 uncles. But, today I look and think the one silver lining was that I spend Thanksgiving with my family. I was going to spend with Pat's family which is ok but I do miss my own family so much. It is different when you come from a large family compared to Pat's very small family. Mom, did well cooking last minute Thanksgiving and always entertaining and talking to everyone the hostess with the mostess. On Friday I was well very upset at the funeral. So many people it was supposed to be a 1 1/2 hour viewing that turned into 3 hours due to the fact so many wanted to come through the funeral home. Some of my Uncle's friends came as far away as Texas, Florida, South Carolina and well surrounding states as well it truly shows that this man was well loved and thought about. The funeral director told me he ran out of the markers for the cars and had to do every third car due to the fact there were over 300 cars in the procession. I am sorry for my cousins and aunt for the loss of Uncle Tim but I feel guilty for sitting there thinking of all the wonderful things people said about my Uncle and thinking I don't want to do this I don't want to have to be the strong one when my father passes away. I know that the town we are from people love my father and I know it will be just as chaotic at his funeral and I kept thinking I don't have the courage or energy to stand in front of all of these people and let my emotions out. I felt so bad for Gary, he kept hugging me all day and searching for time to talk but with so much going on it never happened until late last night. He needed to unwind and well we were raised like brothers and I guess that is another silver lining since the last few years we have not been as connected he has been envolved with his newest daughter and living in Frederick and all but well cell phone talk is cheap and we finally got to just be and that was good. Ok I'm rambling away boring even myself. Joe