Just a little update

[joetheone]

Ok I have been lack in updating my own journal. As usual very busy the last few months with work and all. My co-manager has been off ill and this meant I covered the cell phone 24/7 for 8 weeks non stop and this took a lot out of me personally and physically. She is back and I'm happy and hope the summer goes well at work

Comments

[relic_yuy]

Poor Joe. I had no idea you were sick. Feel better soon sounds flimsy for some reason but I really do hope you do. I am in the same sort of predicament with my husband. I think I still love him and we get along sometimes but there are no sparks anymore. There is barely interest left for me. Lately I find myself fantasizing about being with lots of other people but I cant seem to get excited about him. I wish I had your problem with people trying to pick me up. I guess no one is interested in a 24 year old mother who is cant seem to shake her pregnancy weight. :( Oh well. I've made my bed, now I must lie in it. (That's really all I want to do in it with my husband next to me.)Sorry, hope I have grossed you out with thoughts of het sex. But good job on staying loyal and sticking to your guns.

[mariska_to]

Dear Joe, I kept seeing your messages in discussion of my favorite fanfics, and thought I would check your journal. I am truly sorry you have been ill and I hope your tumor responds to the treatment again. My own brush with a nasty illness which took years to bring under control taught me that one must never lose hope and use all the help one can get to fight it. I hope you stay strong. You know, it may be the drugs you are taking for the tumor that are messing up with your brain chemistry. They did with mine, so I had to go on Prozac to function. After I was allowed off all that, I went natural (found this book useful: Syd Baumel, Dealing with Depression Naturally). But I do not know whether and how the natural way would have worked for my depression with all those drugs in my system.

As a fellow obsessive reader of BBM fanfiction, I cannot help thinking that it must be therapeutical both to write and to read. It certainly works that way for me (that is, reading does, in my case).

You take good care of yourself,

Mariska

Thank you

[joetheone]

Yes Mariska I try to use alternative medication when and if possible. My doctor in Pittsburgh is all for this and always giving me things to try and places to go. I have used some things from Lilly Dale the spiritual community in Chataqua NY and do find these help out also. The medication to treat the tumor is the lesser of two evils in my book and I do have to take a lot of things to counteract it but I have good and bad days and having all the wonderful people of the brokeback world and my own real world help me to remain positive when I can. I appreciate your words and thank you so much. I have not been on the forums for awhile but I hear that my name comes up at times due to my reading I'm happy about that one day I hope to have the time to read some of the words on the forums people have written someone emailed me a few things recently and made me so happy. Joe

Re: Thank you

[mariska_to]

You are most welcome Joe. It’s great you’ve got an open-minded doctor and access to alternative medicine and support from people close and far. I pray it will work and you will beat this thing for good.
Good luck to you! I’ll be checking your journal to see how you are doing--and reading your comments in fanfics.
Mariska