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my best memory i have with her is when we watched the sunrise on the last day of camp
an i guess thats where the analogy began to take shape.
she was my sunrise, she did open my eyes to an amazing light
i knew that no matter how dark it got , the sunrise of her smile wasnt so far off
even distance didnt keep the light away
but truth be told i always waited for the sunrise to disappear
the fact that it never did always felt wierd to me
and now that its been a while since the last sunrise
im beginning to wonder if i will ever see the same one again
its been 2 weeks since ive even caught a brief glimpse of it
to say i miss it is a HUUUUUGE UNDERSTATEMENT
for something that is such a huge part of my life to change
its something i cant quite get a handle on
i have a hard time with my mind thinking of the worst reasons for the change
does she miss me>? does she still love me? do i just add to whats overwhealming her?
ive been asking these questions in my head and im afraid of what the answers of all thre could end up bieng
its hard to know the answers when u cant get to them in the dark
i know this isnt her fault
but it still hurts more than she thinks it does
i wish i wasnt so insecure
but just bieng without her a short time
scares me enough
cuz i dont know what i would do if it stayed like it has been the last few weeks
im putting myself through hell and i cant stop it
all i need is three simple words to know where i stand
but i dont know how many more days without hearing t hem i can take
these morings where the sunrise is a lonely illusion are too much for me
until then ill remember fighting sleep on the lakefront
the morinig that i knew i knew in my heart that she truly was my best friend
an i guess thats where the analogy began to take shape.
she was my sunrise, she did open my eyes to an amazing light
i knew that no matter how dark it got , the sunrise of her smile wasnt so far off
even distance didnt keep the light away
but truth be told i always waited for the sunrise to disappear
the fact that it never did always felt wierd to me
and now that its been a while since the last sunrise
im beginning to wonder if i will ever see the same one again
its been 2 weeks since ive even caught a brief glimpse of it
to say i miss it is a HUUUUUGE UNDERSTATEMENT
for something that is such a huge part of my life to change
its something i cant quite get a handle on
i have a hard time with my mind thinking of the worst reasons for the change
does she miss me>? does she still love me? do i just add to whats overwhealming her?
ive been asking these questions in my head and im afraid of what the answers of all thre could end up bieng
its hard to know the answers when u cant get to them in the dark
i know this isnt her fault
but it still hurts more than she thinks it does
i wish i wasnt so insecure
but just bieng without her a short time
scares me enough
cuz i dont know what i would do if it stayed like it has been the last few weeks
im putting myself through hell and i cant stop it
all i need is three simple words to know where i stand
but i dont know how many more days without hearing t hem i can take
these morings where the sunrise is a lonely illusion are too much for me
until then ill remember fighting sleep on the lakefront
the morinig that i knew i knew in my heart that she truly was my best friend