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[joesbrokenheart]

i really thought i was doing better. and i am, really. but i guess i'm not well enough to handle a relationship yet. i'm not sure if i'll ever be well enough for that. i'm sick with worry and i don't even know why. is it the fact that he still has pictures of his ex girlfriend on his fucking digital camera? i'm not even worried that he'll go

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[theskycankill]

Have you tried St. John's Wort? When I quit taking Paxil, I switched over to STW and although it doesn't keep me from getting anxious, it does sort of make me feel clearheaded? I dunno, maybe it's a placebo effect. But it's worth the try. At least read up on it if you get the chance.

Also, have you tried just talking to your boyfriend about this stuff? I used to DREAD opening up to my significant others because I was always afraid they'd freak out and leave me once they figured out how much "baggage" I had, but then I finally opened up to Matt and I realized, when he didn't run away, that if he had.....like a lot of others had......he shouldn't be the person I was with at all. But like I said, he listened to me and in return he felt comfortable telling me things he was afraid to talk to me about for the same reasons. I'm not saying you have to tell your boyfriend EVERYTHING now, but at least try talking to him about the things you feel like are going to burst out of you if you don't say anything. Cause if you don't, they will BURST eventually.

But, what do I know? I'm not a relationship expert. If I understood them completely, my current relationship would be perfect (and although it's great, it's far from perfect.).