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I can't stop thinking about stuff right now, science related. The universe so magnificently written, coded, patterned. If there was one thing different about physics, none of this would exist. I need to find out more about everything. We know so little about this place we're in, or WHY this place IS in the first place. We know WHAT, but WHY? WHY is energy? WHY is matter? I don't understand. Somehow, I don't know how, but I'm going to find out what this place is or I will go crazy. I NEED TO KNOW MORE. It's all science and math. It's formulas and numbers, patterns. Even chaos theory is numbers. We are not the result of chaos and I know it, but I can't find the explanation. But, somehow I know that religion is not the only way to find God. God is in physics, math and everything about the universe. There's got to be a code, fingerprint, something at the end of the tunnel. The further we look into things, there's got to be a stopping point. We keep looking smaller and smaller. We've gone from the atom to the nucleus, then protons, neutrons, electrons. We've gone to quarks, ups, downs, charm, quanta, string theory. The answer is BIGGER. I wish I could explain all of this but I can't. It's like I'm trying to speak a different language and only know a few words. I have to find it out. I'm not trying to prove God through science because I know we will never completely understand his math, nor am I trying to find God because I don't need science to confirm my faith. I want to understand at least SOME of what God created. I want to know what my dad does for work!!!
I'm going to sleep before I have an aneurism
I'm going to sleep before I have an aneurism