i've changed
i a so bored of the internet, rhiannon made a very good point about it stopping us from talking t people face to face, and even te fact that i am using it to vent my frustrations is stupid, and not to mention somewhat ironic.
i've changed.
i suppose i do like the internet i'd rather have it than not have it, but it s frustrating that it is used instead of conversation, we'll never be like it is in the movies. withnail and i, high fidelity, almost famous, signs and eternal sunshine of the spotless mind are my top5 films ever, for good, i have finally decided. but, however, more to the the point; i suppose the comments fo james maclean are true. up until around the turn of the year, i had barely even heard of most of the bands i have seen in the past few months. my first ever gig was in july 2000, i went to see my friend rufus miller's band asylum at the tunbridge wells forum (i did also see lighthouse family when i was 7 at wembley arena, so i guess that's reeeeally my first gig, but anyways), after that i really properly started to enjoy music. i bought my first album when i was 11 which was radiohead - the bends, i then went out and got the likes of nirvana - nevermind and green day - dookie so i could be as cool as my friends, but after going to see rufus's band that's when i actually started to get into it. my favourite bands were the likes of hell is for heroes, hundred reasons, biffy clyro and reuben. who i found relatively early and saw at places like the peel and heathem house. but last summer with many of these bands starting to get dropped from their labels, i started to get bored of the whole, 'scene', i mean it's not as if i'll never listen to or see them again, but preferences change. oh and just for the record i didn't just listen to those four bands during thouse four years, duh! but it was when em started asking me if i'd like to go to some gigs with her that this 'change' started to take place. after months of ignorance, i went to see the pipettes at the windmill, and since have been to see lots of bands with her. but i guess the culmination of this 'change' was when i saw the cribs over biffy clyro at reading, which honestly pissed a lot of people off. i guess what i'm trying to say is, yes, i've changed, but isn't it also known as growing up. i met a lot of new people in the last few months and last week seeing as i started art college on monday, and i suppose it feels like starting again, it almost feels like seeing the pipettes in march was like seeing asylum in 2000. i don't know many people that well, i'm slowly getting there. i don't know what i want exactly, but yeas, i've changed the bands i go and see and perhaps the way i dress, but hasn't everyone else, i'm still the same personality, and i still feel 12 years old, i always will i think. i've always been everyone's little brother, even though i'm older than a lot of people i know. so i'm sorry james, it's not as if i'm trying to be a 'scenester' or anything, but i love music, i want to see every band i like as many times as i can, and dance like a funky-ass-motherfucker when i do, i want to like everyone(that may sound odd but i always try to like people), but if i don't i want to hate them, i want to be original, but i don't know what to do yet.
sorry for boring you with my ramblings, i feel very wierd, slightly depressed by somethings at home and suchlike, but also like i'm starting a new chapter, which makes me feel nervous. it's like alice, said, it feels like 'it' is over, we all know what 'it' is, even i do, and i wasen't really part of 'it', but this also fills me with happiness, at the fact that if we're at the end of one thing, we're at the beggining of another, and this means we get to control what 'it' is this time round. let's make it good!
i've changed.
i suppose i do like the internet i'd rather have it than not have it, but it s frustrating that it is used instead of conversation, we'll never be like it is in the movies. withnail and i, high fidelity, almost famous, signs and eternal sunshine of the spotless mind are my top5 films ever, for good, i have finally decided. but, however, more to the the point; i suppose the comments fo james maclean are true. up until around the turn of the year, i had barely even heard of most of the bands i have seen in the past few months. my first ever gig was in july 2000, i went to see my friend rufus miller's band asylum at the tunbridge wells forum (i did also see lighthouse family when i was 7 at wembley arena, so i guess that's reeeeally my first gig, but anyways), after that i really properly started to enjoy music. i bought my first album when i was 11 which was radiohead - the bends, i then went out and got the likes of nirvana - nevermind and green day - dookie so i could be as cool as my friends, but after going to see rufus's band that's when i actually started to get into it. my favourite bands were the likes of hell is for heroes, hundred reasons, biffy clyro and reuben. who i found relatively early and saw at places like the peel and heathem house. but last summer with many of these bands starting to get dropped from their labels, i started to get bored of the whole, 'scene', i mean it's not as if i'll never listen to or see them again, but preferences change. oh and just for the record i didn't just listen to those four bands during thouse four years, duh! but it was when em started asking me if i'd like to go to some gigs with her that this 'change' started to take place. after months of ignorance, i went to see the pipettes at the windmill, and since have been to see lots of bands with her. but i guess the culmination of this 'change' was when i saw the cribs over biffy clyro at reading, which honestly pissed a lot of people off. i guess what i'm trying to say is, yes, i've changed, but isn't it also known as growing up. i met a lot of new people in the last few months and last week seeing as i started art college on monday, and i suppose it feels like starting again, it almost feels like seeing the pipettes in march was like seeing asylum in 2000. i don't know many people that well, i'm slowly getting there. i don't know what i want exactly, but yeas, i've changed the bands i go and see and perhaps the way i dress, but hasn't everyone else, i'm still the same personality, and i still feel 12 years old, i always will i think. i've always been everyone's little brother, even though i'm older than a lot of people i know. so i'm sorry james, it's not as if i'm trying to be a 'scenester' or anything, but i love music, i want to see every band i like as many times as i can, and dance like a funky-ass-motherfucker when i do, i want to like everyone(that may sound odd but i always try to like people), but if i don't i want to hate them, i want to be original, but i don't know what to do yet.
sorry for boring you with my ramblings, i feel very wierd, slightly depressed by somethings at home and suchlike, but also like i'm starting a new chapter, which makes me feel nervous. it's like alice, said, it feels like 'it' is over, we all know what 'it' is, even i do, and i wasen't really part of 'it', but this also fills me with happiness, at the fact that if we're at the end of one thing, we're at the beggining of another, and this means we get to control what 'it' is this time round. let's make it good!