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i have a lot on my mind that i dont know how to express... lots of feelings, emotions and other things... things from happiness to anger, lust to greed... who knows what to think anymore.. im just mentally exhausted lately... grr...
im coming into focus again on which friends i want to keep and which i want to discard... im known to filter people out time to time and i feel that now is the time... so, if some people dont hear from me, its because i wanted it that way... as simple as it can be, im not gonna be anywhere but where im appreciated... i havent felt welcome, or easy in some places lately, which is cool, i miss that feeling time to time..
im trying to grasp what it is i really want to do, but im still unsure, and quite frankly, i know more about waht i dont want to do, than what i do want to do... how fuckign wonderful is that? im smart enough to be an engineer, but im told i have too much personality and charisma... i care enough to be a teacher, but i dont want to get shitty pay and snotty students.... i love to write, but i hate computers too much to be a writer... geez... what the fuck can a guy do? i still feel entertainment is my thing... who knows... maybe im way the fuck off...
ive got great grades this semester... nothin new really... but its not as much of a challenge, which kinda sucks, but is great for my gpa;)
well, im uber exhausted, ill talk at u later...
im coming into focus again on which friends i want to keep and which i want to discard... im known to filter people out time to time and i feel that now is the time... so, if some people dont hear from me, its because i wanted it that way... as simple as it can be, im not gonna be anywhere but where im appreciated... i havent felt welcome, or easy in some places lately, which is cool, i miss that feeling time to time..
im trying to grasp what it is i really want to do, but im still unsure, and quite frankly, i know more about waht i dont want to do, than what i do want to do... how fuckign wonderful is that? im smart enough to be an engineer, but im told i have too much personality and charisma... i care enough to be a teacher, but i dont want to get shitty pay and snotty students.... i love to write, but i hate computers too much to be a writer... geez... what the fuck can a guy do? i still feel entertainment is my thing... who knows... maybe im way the fuck off...
ive got great grades this semester... nothin new really... but its not as much of a challenge, which kinda sucks, but is great for my gpa;)
well, im uber exhausted, ill talk at u later...