last thoughts..
People asked me earlier this week if I was excited to be heading off to college. And I would tell them I would start getting excited after I finish packing. But now that I AM done packing, I dunno what to feel....
Today was the first time I ate dinner with just Mom and Dad at the dinner table and it was truely an awkward experience. I haven't sat in Mark's seat of the table in years, and performing grace at that seat was just as uncomfortable. This whole week, I've felt guilty for not eating dinner with my parents and being out with my friends. And my last dinner with them today felt so empty, so unfulfilling. I can't explain why, but I just didn't feel hungry sitting at the table without my Lola, who ate while we were driving back home from Santa Cruz, and Mark, who is currently at Santa Cruz right now. I wonder how dinners will be once I move out later this morning. When Paul was still living at home we would have six people eat dinner at the table every weekend. Now that all the kids are no longer in the house, I've realized how much space will be unused in the here. I doubt that our rooms will go thru any changes by the time I come back for thanksgiving and christmas. Mark's room will always be that shade of green we never wanted, and the bed in my room will always be stiff. Home will always be Hayward, and I know I'll want to go back up more often than I think.
Now that my LiveJournal is officially "known" to the ones that matter most, its up to all of us to update each other on our lives as well as our thoughts. Mark, I'm looking forward to more of your awesome stuff just as much as I want to hear John's sweet sweet words about Megan hahaha. I didn't tell you guys about this earlier cause well, Mark covered our summer days way better than I could ever imagine. I just wanted to start the habit of LJ-ing before I moved out and so Mark and I would both have different yet interesting days and thoughts to tell you.
The last thing I want to get out of my chest are some of my goodbyes to the people I didn't get the chance to see tonight..
David: damn, we didn't get to chill at ALL this whole week. As much as I would've loved to have one last game of foursquare with you guys, I knew in my head I just would not be able to visit you in the city. We've been carpool buddies since our days back at St. Clement. Best friends since Kindergarten. That's what a private, Catholic education gets you, a long lasting, childhood friend. We know each other way too well, I know you'll be a big deal up in SFSU. You'll be the one to show me around the campus and to meet all the cool people in your school. You're basically family to me, so you know I'll call you up the second I know I'm heading back up to the bay. We'll set up a game of foursquare next time we meet up, I know I'll training for that day hahaha.
Vernon: The same applies to you man. I dunno if you go around looking at people's livejournals but I hope someone gives you the heads up about this. You are one of the most mature, and inspiring people I know. Everyone knows you can be the funniest person in class and can outflex men twice your height. But as much as I'm gonna miss that I'm gonna miss the serious side of you more. You're one of the few guys I know I feel comfortable telling or asking you about anything and I know I can get an honest and worthy answer from. Whenever you have something important to say, I always listen cause I know it's worth listening to and can help us in some way or form. It's too bad we didn't get to say bye before I left but I know our friendship is stronger than 3 hours of driving, and I'll see you sometime soon.
Nicole: ahhhhh well, I tried. I knew that our day to hang out, the one we planned to do in the beginning of summer wouldn't happen as days past by. It's okay, I forgive you. I just know that whenever that day comes, you'll tackle me with a giant hug as you always would. I hope we'll keep in touch, and that you'll still be playing with your XBox 360 and techy toys that I've always wanted to own.
John: ahhhh its too bad you couldn't come through tonight, but I know you tried your hardest. To me, the first half of this summer was all about being the third and fourth wheels to Mark and Alyssa. And because of that, I'm thankful for it. We've gotten so much closer in the span of half a year. Yes, its too bad we weren't this close earlier into our high school careers, but we've already made some amazing and worthwhile memories. I think I deserve some credit with introducing you to Megan. If only you could've taught me how to play "Stronger than" to woo my own ladies to dances, I would've loved you forever hahaha. You already know I'm calling you when I'm heading up, so yeah, I'll see you and Jeremy soon
For the others I DID see tonight, Carl, Gabe, Jeremy, Sunanda, Camille, Raquel, and Cristina, I could spend another two hours writing about much I'll miss you guys but its getting late and I need some rest before I head off. I want to thank all of you for taking the time to come through my house. Raquel, you especially, you didn't need to come but you showed me how much I mean to you and yes, you mean the same way to me. Ladies, you all mean a lot to me, and I know we'll have loads to talk about next time we meet. Whether online or in person. Guys, thanks for keeping the conversation light tonight and coming through in general. It really makes me feel loved to see you guys roll together and chill with me outside my house because my parents wouldn't let me go out tonight. I'm expecting to be picked up once this year. and Jeremy, expect a special phone call within the next few months hahaha.
Right now.. it's almost three in the morning and I think I'm feeling a bit better about today. Sigh... yeah, I think it's time to get excited now. hahaha. I'm about to eat HELLA spam this year with my roommate, ryan. AWESOME! Let the good times roll.
Today was the first time I ate dinner with just Mom and Dad at the dinner table and it was truely an awkward experience. I haven't sat in Mark's seat of the table in years, and performing grace at that seat was just as uncomfortable. This whole week, I've felt guilty for not eating dinner with my parents and being out with my friends. And my last dinner with them today felt so empty, so unfulfilling. I can't explain why, but I just didn't feel hungry sitting at the table without my Lola, who ate while we were driving back home from Santa Cruz, and Mark, who is currently at Santa Cruz right now. I wonder how dinners will be once I move out later this morning. When Paul was still living at home we would have six people eat dinner at the table every weekend. Now that all the kids are no longer in the house, I've realized how much space will be unused in the here. I doubt that our rooms will go thru any changes by the time I come back for thanksgiving and christmas. Mark's room will always be that shade of green we never wanted, and the bed in my room will always be stiff. Home will always be Hayward, and I know I'll want to go back up more often than I think.
Now that my LiveJournal is officially "known" to the ones that matter most, its up to all of us to update each other on our lives as well as our thoughts. Mark, I'm looking forward to more of your awesome stuff just as much as I want to hear John's sweet sweet words about Megan hahaha. I didn't tell you guys about this earlier cause well, Mark covered our summer days way better than I could ever imagine. I just wanted to start the habit of LJ-ing before I moved out and so Mark and I would both have different yet interesting days and thoughts to tell you.
The last thing I want to get out of my chest are some of my goodbyes to the people I didn't get the chance to see tonight..
David: damn, we didn't get to chill at ALL this whole week. As much as I would've loved to have one last game of foursquare with you guys, I knew in my head I just would not be able to visit you in the city. We've been carpool buddies since our days back at St. Clement. Best friends since Kindergarten. That's what a private, Catholic education gets you, a long lasting, childhood friend. We know each other way too well, I know you'll be a big deal up in SFSU. You'll be the one to show me around the campus and to meet all the cool people in your school. You're basically family to me, so you know I'll call you up the second I know I'm heading back up to the bay. We'll set up a game of foursquare next time we meet up, I know I'll training for that day hahaha.
Vernon: The same applies to you man. I dunno if you go around looking at people's livejournals but I hope someone gives you the heads up about this. You are one of the most mature, and inspiring people I know. Everyone knows you can be the funniest person in class and can outflex men twice your height. But as much as I'm gonna miss that I'm gonna miss the serious side of you more. You're one of the few guys I know I feel comfortable telling or asking you about anything and I know I can get an honest and worthy answer from. Whenever you have something important to say, I always listen cause I know it's worth listening to and can help us in some way or form. It's too bad we didn't get to say bye before I left but I know our friendship is stronger than 3 hours of driving, and I'll see you sometime soon.
Nicole: ahhhhh well, I tried. I knew that our day to hang out, the one we planned to do in the beginning of summer wouldn't happen as days past by. It's okay, I forgive you. I just know that whenever that day comes, you'll tackle me with a giant hug as you always would. I hope we'll keep in touch, and that you'll still be playing with your XBox 360 and techy toys that I've always wanted to own.
John: ahhhh its too bad you couldn't come through tonight, but I know you tried your hardest. To me, the first half of this summer was all about being the third and fourth wheels to Mark and Alyssa. And because of that, I'm thankful for it. We've gotten so much closer in the span of half a year. Yes, its too bad we weren't this close earlier into our high school careers, but we've already made some amazing and worthwhile memories. I think I deserve some credit with introducing you to Megan. If only you could've taught me how to play "Stronger than" to woo my own ladies to dances, I would've loved you forever hahaha. You already know I'm calling you when I'm heading up, so yeah, I'll see you and Jeremy soon
For the others I DID see tonight, Carl, Gabe, Jeremy, Sunanda, Camille, Raquel, and Cristina, I could spend another two hours writing about much I'll miss you guys but its getting late and I need some rest before I head off. I want to thank all of you for taking the time to come through my house. Raquel, you especially, you didn't need to come but you showed me how much I mean to you and yes, you mean the same way to me. Ladies, you all mean a lot to me, and I know we'll have loads to talk about next time we meet. Whether online or in person. Guys, thanks for keeping the conversation light tonight and coming through in general. It really makes me feel loved to see you guys roll together and chill with me outside my house because my parents wouldn't let me go out tonight. I'm expecting to be picked up once this year. and Jeremy, expect a special phone call within the next few months hahaha.
Right now.. it's almost three in the morning and I think I'm feeling a bit better about today. Sigh... yeah, I think it's time to get excited now. hahaha. I'm about to eat HELLA spam this year with my roommate, ryan. AWESOME! Let the good times roll.