i miss my baby
god i wish she was here... i wish i could be with her all the time... i wish i could marry her now... and be with her ALL the time... you know i wish i could just go out... buy a ring... propose... and that be it... she'd be living with me... id have her ALL to me... and not have to worry about us sneaking around... not have to worry about her dad getting pissed cuz she's staying with me... ive thought about whether or not my parents would be upset with it... but you know what... at the same time... i really dont care... cuz one way or another its guna happen... i mean... were not guna rush it... idk how many times ive told her that she was already engaged... that she's just waiting on a ring... and trust me... she'll get it too... cuz i've never loved someone HALF as much as i love her... she came to my work today when i was on break... and she said she thought she was just guna go home when she left... and when i asked if she was coming over when i got off she said how she was tired and didnt feel to great... and that she wanted to stay at home tonight... i wasnt upset by it... if she didnt feel too good and was tired then i think she should have gone home and stayed there... i got out of work at 11 tonight... and as i walking to my car... and i got about 5 steps from my car door when i realized someone was sitting in theyre car next to me with pajamas on... and i looked over... and i saw that she'd come back... and god... this humongous sensation ran through me... one that ive only felt once b4... the first time i kissed her... she'd come back cuz she missed me... and i got the sensation of "i love this girl to death... and its ALWAYS going to be that way"... and i felt loved more than usual tonight... i felt "important" if thats how you want to put it... i felt like nobody could possibly feel this way about me... i mean i actually thought i was just going straight home and getting online and talking her for the night and then going to bed... but when i saw that she had come back... god that was great... i miss the hell out of her now... she had to go home but... i was so happy that she had shown back up... and tonight was just one more time added to the collection that tells me... IM MARRYING HER... AND IM ALWAYS GUNA LOVE HER... i love you baby