so much for a good week
Y'know how I said last week was really shitty? Well, this week is just getting worse and worse as it goes on. The only good thing that's happened today is that I got my computer, oh and I get to redo an assignment that everyone but 3 people in the class failed. I doubt I'm lucky enough to be one of those three. So, other than those two things, today sucks, as did last night. It was all fun and games until my neighbor above me busted into my living room yelling about how loud we had been the past 2 weeks, and that if we didn't stop having more than two cars in the parking lot at night and having loud parties that he would complain to the council and get us evicted. FUCK! It didn't help that I was stoned and drunk and had two bongs in plain veiw on the mantle. I think that I calmed him down enough not to complain to anyone, but I don't want to incense the situation anymore than it already is.
Something else happened last night, and though everyone around us was happy, I'm not sure if it was the right thing to do. It wasn't a concious decision on my part, but I had been thinking about it all day long. Yesterday was not a good day to be thinking over serious life changing decisions. Yesterday was fucked up beyond belief, and I think that I'm gonna need a couple days just to get over all the stress caused by the bullshit I shoveled into the fan. I'm so stressed, tired, confused, fearful, and completely sober. The last item was not ment to sound negative. I need to be sober for a long while before I make anymore decisions in my life. Sad that it took so long for me to figure that out, but all it took was a few hits to the head from reality. I don't know if I want to break down and cry, or fall asleep in a fetal position right now. All I know is that neither one is an option. I'm out of class now, so I'm going home, I'm going to eat, beat my roommate, maybe find my cats, and who knows what else will come up. I just hope I have time for a nap.
Something else happened last night, and though everyone around us was happy, I'm not sure if it was the right thing to do. It wasn't a concious decision on my part, but I had been thinking about it all day long. Yesterday was not a good day to be thinking over serious life changing decisions. Yesterday was fucked up beyond belief, and I think that I'm gonna need a couple days just to get over all the stress caused by the bullshit I shoveled into the fan. I'm so stressed, tired, confused, fearful, and completely sober. The last item was not ment to sound negative. I need to be sober for a long while before I make anymore decisions in my life. Sad that it took so long for me to figure that out, but all it took was a few hits to the head from reality. I don't know if I want to break down and cry, or fall asleep in a fetal position right now. All I know is that neither one is an option. I'm out of class now, so I'm going home, I'm going to eat, beat my roommate, maybe find my cats, and who knows what else will come up. I just hope I have time for a nap.