woe is me..

[joelsriotgrl]

so... i decided, i will make a terrible housewife. i can't cook, i can't even pop popcorn (wtf?), i cannot make a damn thing, i dont clean, im not tidy, and my husband will never be able to understand me. the opposite sex and i just dont get along when it comes to relationships. boys make great friends, but they should remain just that...friends. i dont know. but im going to be a terrible wife. im too uncertain about things. i think i'll have my kid, then kick him out, and tell my kid that their father's a liar and a cheater. my mom never told me any of those things, she told me nice things about that man i was supposed to call "dad". i didnt like him much, and i've grown to hate him. he actually was a liar and a cheater. i hate men. well, men like him. i wouldnt wanna put my kids through that, and to experience such hate towards a single person at a young age. my mother was a great person, stupid bastard had to mistreat her, and screw her over. now hes fucking me over. after 17 years, dont you think he could do something right??? back to my wifey-ness. i wanna be like my mom. my grandma came in to clean our house. we ate tv dinners and munchies. we would eat our full meals at my grandma's, since she knew how to cook. i miss those days, days of innocence. it was better i didnt understand. she knew i loved her. i still do. moms are great, if you get a good one. if you have a good one, take advantage, hold on toher as long as you can. you can say the same about dads. im lucky i have a new set of parents. they dont do too bad all the time. dad loves me more.

i miss being a kid, thinking she was pregnant.

i love chelscey.... may your puppy rest in peace!!!!