Maximum warp, Wharf.

[joelsephiryn]

I hate to be one of those guys, but sometimes I just sit around wondering what it is that's going to happen in my life if I continue to live the way I currently am.

So many of the things I want, I do nothing to persue.

I want to be in movies.
I want to get buff.
I want to eat right.
I want to write more music.
I want a girl.
I want to save money.
I want to work with kids again.
I want a new coffeetable.
I want to quit smoking.
I want to get out more.
I want to see my friends more often.
I want to finish my screenplay.
I want a clean closet.
I want no enemies.
I want to travel.

All or most of these things are possible, but not without effort from ME. I'm not doing much to make an attempt on these things. I'm living for today.

Rather than working out, or trying to patch things up with people, or going to school, or saving money, or sitting at the computer and writing, I end up sitting around pondering stupid shit like how to get more of a skin-like texture for my body parts or why there isn't more Night Court on Dvd.

I sadly don't see this changing very soon, either.

I'm just a stubborn, lazy bum. I need motivation. Maybe I'll buy some dumbells to get started.

This post makes me sound depressed, but I'm not. I'm very happy! I know I could be happier, though, especially minus this beer belly, some money to fall back on and with a girlfriend who asks how my day was. I'm just kind of in a wtf mood, and needed to vent a little.

Anyone else ever do that? Am I alone?