Again
So yet again I find myself too tired to think straight and unable to sleep because I have women on my mind.
I guess I've maybe talked to Liz for the last time. Maybe its for the better... maybe its not. Either way I made a mess of things.
I saw Christine for the first time in 2 years randomly the other day at the laundry mat. Jazz said she was there every Wednesday when she would do her laundry. So we went on a Tuesday and what do you know 10 seconds after we pull in to the parking lot so does Christine. It was a bit awkward. I don't have feelings for her anymore but being around her still made me slip into this alter-persona not far from a blonde chick. Jazz just thought it was hilarious. Jazz, Dan, Cathy and I have hung out quite a bit lately I just hope that doesn't change after I've been gone for 2 weeks. I saw Jessica today when I visited Heather on the way up home. I don't know what it is about her .. something. I'll see some of the old crew tomorrow at church, Laura included. I just read on facebook, Angela is in MQT for the weekend and It figures that I'm up here now. I tried calling Nora on the road today but couldn't reach her. It's become kind of our thing to call and catch up whilst driving long distances. Elise suggested earlier that I should've tagged along with Cathy downstate today but even if I didn't have to be up here.. 6+ hours on the road alonde together could've been painful. For some reason even a 6 minute drive across town seems somehow tense. I tried calling Sarah as well to see if she'd gone stir-crazy from a lack of work yet. I need to call Mame we havn't talked in quite a while but shes been real busy,
So I guess I'm reflecting on the feeling that right now it seems I know a girl at every possible level with the exception of girlfriend. and it makes my mind swim sometimes.
I've decided to try and get healthy this summer. Eat better, train harder, live fuller.
I can't wait till next year I get to fish a bigger pond
I want to dream, its been too long,
OK falling asleep so night
I guess I've maybe talked to Liz for the last time. Maybe its for the better... maybe its not. Either way I made a mess of things.
I saw Christine for the first time in 2 years randomly the other day at the laundry mat. Jazz said she was there every Wednesday when she would do her laundry. So we went on a Tuesday and what do you know 10 seconds after we pull in to the parking lot so does Christine. It was a bit awkward. I don't have feelings for her anymore but being around her still made me slip into this alter-persona not far from a blonde chick. Jazz just thought it was hilarious. Jazz, Dan, Cathy and I have hung out quite a bit lately I just hope that doesn't change after I've been gone for 2 weeks. I saw Jessica today when I visited Heather on the way up home. I don't know what it is about her .. something. I'll see some of the old crew tomorrow at church, Laura included. I just read on facebook, Angela is in MQT for the weekend and It figures that I'm up here now. I tried calling Nora on the road today but couldn't reach her. It's become kind of our thing to call and catch up whilst driving long distances. Elise suggested earlier that I should've tagged along with Cathy downstate today but even if I didn't have to be up here.. 6+ hours on the road alonde together could've been painful. For some reason even a 6 minute drive across town seems somehow tense. I tried calling Sarah as well to see if she'd gone stir-crazy from a lack of work yet. I need to call Mame we havn't talked in quite a while but shes been real busy,
So I guess I'm reflecting on the feeling that right now it seems I know a girl at every possible level with the exception of girlfriend. and it makes my mind swim sometimes.
I've decided to try and get healthy this summer. Eat better, train harder, live fuller.
I can't wait till next year I get to fish a bigger pond
I want to dream, its been too long,
OK falling asleep so night