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These days I still rebounding from a summer of 7am-5pm work days. So I'm the laziest I've ever been. Oddly enough I get 8-10 hours of sleep and wake up exhausted. Except tonight, I couldn't fall asleep no matter how hard I tried or didn't try. I also seem to be the busiest, until recently. All my friends used to be all on the same floor of the same building. Which made seeing them easy. Now they live all over town and have different schedules and it's next to impossible to plan a time to see them. This year being the "last year" really makes me feel I should be doing something with my life. I always felt that I had been until now. It seems there are too many options and questions with out guidance or answers.
Do I work for the park?
-It's decent pay for now, but I'd be in Calumet, and I'm afraid to get trapped there. I couldn't have a family on that pay even if I could find someone in that dinky dying town. Not that I need a family anytime soon, but I'd like to be ready with a good job and a stable residence in a couple of years.
Do I find a draftsman job?
-Put my mug on monster.com and leave everything I know for an unsatisfying job that may be a dead end.
Do I continue on to Arch school right away?
Do I have the grades to do that? If so, where?
-Go to a no name school and do OK and then have no one give me a job.
Do I stay at NMU and bring my grades up? If so, what do I study?
-I could study furniture (I've designed a built a few already) or human centered design? (vague but interesting).
How will I pay the bills?
-Michael's won't do it, my parents are going to cut me off sooner or later. They should have by now.
Do I take the huge jump and rack up massive loans and do everything I want?
-Study a semester in Europe, go to a great school like UofM or UWM, haha UofChicago haha... etc
I keep hoping I'll meet someone and then I could mold some of my decisions around her. But as the year moves on, that seems less and less likely. No one seems to have any useful advice - not even my parents.
I guess I'll keep going day to day, hoping something happens, or I see a good chance and actually take it.
I need sleep, I get pessimistic when I can't sleep.
Do I work for the park?
-It's decent pay for now, but I'd be in Calumet, and I'm afraid to get trapped there. I couldn't have a family on that pay even if I could find someone in that dinky dying town. Not that I need a family anytime soon, but I'd like to be ready with a good job and a stable residence in a couple of years.
Do I find a draftsman job?
-Put my mug on monster.com and leave everything I know for an unsatisfying job that may be a dead end.
Do I continue on to Arch school right away?
Do I have the grades to do that? If so, where?
-Go to a no name school and do OK and then have no one give me a job.
Do I stay at NMU and bring my grades up? If so, what do I study?
-I could study furniture (I've designed a built a few already) or human centered design? (vague but interesting).
How will I pay the bills?
-Michael's won't do it, my parents are going to cut me off sooner or later. They should have by now.
Do I take the huge jump and rack up massive loans and do everything I want?
-Study a semester in Europe, go to a great school like UofM or UWM, haha UofChicago haha... etc
I keep hoping I'll meet someone and then I could mold some of my decisions around her. But as the year moves on, that seems less and less likely. No one seems to have any useful advice - not even my parents.
I guess I'll keep going day to day, hoping something happens, or I see a good chance and actually take it.
I need sleep, I get pessimistic when I can't sleep.