Finally an update...
I am so out of practice from writing this journal. I remember the days when I would update almost every single day. I would just wait around for things to write about. And now? I can't remember the last time I updated my journal.
So, what's going on? Well, I'm getting ready for the summer to start, and with summer comes the wedding season. Colleen is getting married in June, so I have two bridal showers to attend and I still have to plan her bachelorette party. I'm excited for it, but I'm also a little nervous. My relationship with Colleen has felt really strained recently. She told me she hates Sam for a number of reasons, none of which I think are valid or true. I think the worst part about it is that one of our other friends basically did the same thing to her and they no longer speak, but at the same time she expects me to be ok with it. Sam figured it out, and so now he has a real problem with her, which makes things even more awkward. He told me that when I hang out with her he feels like I'm saying "I choose her over our relationship", and I can understand that because I know I would feel the same way. I hope we can work this out before her wedding is over, otherwise I really don't know how our relationship is going to go.
On a lighter note, my cousin is also getting this summer, but not until August. She's the first person in my generation in my family to get married, so it's pretty exciting. I think it's going to be a great wedding.
Sam and I are doing great. I feel like our relationship has grown a lot in the past couple of months. We occasionally have our little issues, but we've actually made a lot of forward progress. I think the most encouraging sign was when he told me, "I've really thought about our relationship, and I've fixed my priorities. You are the best thing that's ever happened to me, and I love you." He's a good man, but I sometimes think that he doesn't know it; he doesn't think he's worthy of being loved and treated right. It's such a shame he doesn't believe it; I guess I have all of the past girlfriends to thank for that. So thank you ladies, for sucking at life and trying to bring a good man down. :)
Sam and I have a baby shower/ couples' party to go to in a few weeks for Greg and Joelza, his uncle and aunt whose wedding we were a part of in October. I don't really know how the party is going to turn out. I can't see a bunch of guys getting excited over baby things, but maybe it's not going to be like that. We'll just have to see.
Other than that, life has been as usual. School, home life; they keep me busy. All for now.
So, what's going on? Well, I'm getting ready for the summer to start, and with summer comes the wedding season. Colleen is getting married in June, so I have two bridal showers to attend and I still have to plan her bachelorette party. I'm excited for it, but I'm also a little nervous. My relationship with Colleen has felt really strained recently. She told me she hates Sam for a number of reasons, none of which I think are valid or true. I think the worst part about it is that one of our other friends basically did the same thing to her and they no longer speak, but at the same time she expects me to be ok with it. Sam figured it out, and so now he has a real problem with her, which makes things even more awkward. He told me that when I hang out with her he feels like I'm saying "I choose her over our relationship", and I can understand that because I know I would feel the same way. I hope we can work this out before her wedding is over, otherwise I really don't know how our relationship is going to go.
On a lighter note, my cousin is also getting this summer, but not until August. She's the first person in my generation in my family to get married, so it's pretty exciting. I think it's going to be a great wedding.
Sam and I are doing great. I feel like our relationship has grown a lot in the past couple of months. We occasionally have our little issues, but we've actually made a lot of forward progress. I think the most encouraging sign was when he told me, "I've really thought about our relationship, and I've fixed my priorities. You are the best thing that's ever happened to me, and I love you." He's a good man, but I sometimes think that he doesn't know it; he doesn't think he's worthy of being loved and treated right. It's such a shame he doesn't believe it; I guess I have all of the past girlfriends to thank for that. So thank you ladies, for sucking at life and trying to bring a good man down. :)
Sam and I have a baby shower/ couples' party to go to in a few weeks for Greg and Joelza, his uncle and aunt whose wedding we were a part of in October. I don't really know how the party is going to turn out. I can't see a bunch of guys getting excited over baby things, but maybe it's not going to be like that. We'll just have to see.
Other than that, life has been as usual. School, home life; they keep me busy. All for now.