Bad Times

[joel_bowles]

You know me and beth hasn't been getting a long lately. She tells me that i am annoying to her and that i am a dumbass. You know she says that i am up her ass all the time but fuck i never get to see her that much. i went to see her at wendys but see wanted me to leave. But i stayed there for a hour just so i could talk to her for like 5 mins. but

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[joel_bowles]

thanxs man but i just can't help not thinking about her i meen i don't even know what happened to make her not love me no more like what did i do. I still don't know what to do. I wonder all the time about it what did i do that was so bad that she stoped loveing me. I have had ppl tell me that she is on drugs but i don't believe it. Maybe she is smakeing weed again but she wouldn't do any other drugs i hope. i still love her and i find myself wishing that she would just come back to me soon. but i know that wouldn't happen. I talked to her mom the day i went to talk to her at work and her mom said she thought she was on drugs. Her mom also said she didn't start acting funny untill she started hanging out with jessica but the beth i knew loved me unconditonally. The beth i knew would get mad at me in the mornings befor school but never told me to leave her house bc i was annoying to her or that i was a dumbass. I would feel a lil better if she could just tell me why she doesn't love me anymore. But i want her to tell me not some friend or anyone else just her. I think it hurts so bad is bc i gave her my hole heart and she broke it into a thousand pieces. But there is nothing i can do now but try to get over it.