the problems with not updating for a week
When you don't update for a week its like theres a billion things to say. Josh and Mego really have the right idea they update everynight. Then its a much more accurate representation of what happend and how your feeling. Looking back on feelings is always different. So my other issue with this program is that I feel like I shouldn't really express how im really feeling because other people read this and then their being made vulnerable by the things that I tell...i mean i think the only people that read this are mego, josh and justine. And atleast justine gets told everything because she lives with me, and mego wouldn't really tell anyone and i don't think Josh really cares that much...haha.
Anyways as not to make others vulnerable i'll focus on my own things. The freinds that I made at lunch last week...they are so much fun. Since then I've offically been accepted into the "tight knit circle" says Andrew. I really like him a lot. He's really super cool, and this is one of those things that I don't want to go on a rant about. Because if you don't say it outloud then it's not quite as difficult if things don't work out. So that can be the end of the rant. Anyways, we went to wegmans last week to get groceries...I've decided that it is probably the ultimate "first" hang out. because like...its great to talk and it sparks conversation. If you do the whole dinner and a movie thing then its like you go and sit there and then you talk about the movie...BORING. wegmans, sooo not boring. So then the next day I think he and Sarah came over. There was a tornado watch and Andrew (mr. geologist) showed us the clouds to watch out for. It was so cool, Sarah had a panic attack. That wasn't that cool but it was sunny and so ooo not windy, then there were all these layers of clouds and they were spirling like you wouldn't believe. It was so awesome. then...get this...it was HAILING! on a 65 degree day! CRAZZY. hehe. so then Sarah wanted to see my sex toys, we acted out the "secret sexual positions" it was really funny, but i dropped her on her head against my wall...they were rediculous. haha. I could never actually have sex in any of those positions.
Later on after that I decided I needed to tell Sarah that I'm bi so that she didn't find out some other way and think I was creepy. So anyways, she got really excited, and then proceeded to tell me she wanted to make out and simultaniously tell andrew that she wasnts to have a three-some. I know that they are like best freinds, but I also know that he has past feelings for her and still does but doesn't see anything actally working out with her. It's already getting complicated like whoah. haha. Our plan has just been to not force anything which is good. I don't necessarily feel like I would be pushing things, but I want for him to be comfortable so I'm going to wait for him to make the moves or whatever, and to tell you the truth. Other than the fact that I think he's really attractive and I would like very much so to be with him, that also doesn't mean that I wouldn't rather have him as a friend. Thats part of why I'm so interested in him, because I see him as a sexual narrative match and as a friend match, and I think we have similar attitudes about things and that it might prove to be successful...I think it's really odd that I just said that. I wonder if relationships would be made easier if I didn't study them, but maybe it means that if i use my knowledge perhaps I can find a good one.
Okay, a lot more is going on but thats pretty much whats taking over my thoughts. haha...so much for not ranting!
Anyways as not to make others vulnerable i'll focus on my own things. The freinds that I made at lunch last week...they are so much fun. Since then I've offically been accepted into the "tight knit circle" says Andrew. I really like him a lot. He's really super cool, and this is one of those things that I don't want to go on a rant about. Because if you don't say it outloud then it's not quite as difficult if things don't work out. So that can be the end of the rant. Anyways, we went to wegmans last week to get groceries...I've decided that it is probably the ultimate "first" hang out. because like...its great to talk and it sparks conversation. If you do the whole dinner and a movie thing then its like you go and sit there and then you talk about the movie...BORING. wegmans, sooo not boring. So then the next day I think he and Sarah came over. There was a tornado watch and Andrew (mr. geologist) showed us the clouds to watch out for. It was so cool, Sarah had a panic attack. That wasn't that cool but it was sunny and so ooo not windy, then there were all these layers of clouds and they were spirling like you wouldn't believe. It was so awesome. then...get this...it was HAILING! on a 65 degree day! CRAZZY. hehe. so then Sarah wanted to see my sex toys, we acted out the "secret sexual positions" it was really funny, but i dropped her on her head against my wall...they were rediculous. haha. I could never actually have sex in any of those positions.
Later on after that I decided I needed to tell Sarah that I'm bi so that she didn't find out some other way and think I was creepy. So anyways, she got really excited, and then proceeded to tell me she wanted to make out and simultaniously tell andrew that she wasnts to have a three-some. I know that they are like best freinds, but I also know that he has past feelings for her and still does but doesn't see anything actally working out with her. It's already getting complicated like whoah. haha. Our plan has just been to not force anything which is good. I don't necessarily feel like I would be pushing things, but I want for him to be comfortable so I'm going to wait for him to make the moves or whatever, and to tell you the truth. Other than the fact that I think he's really attractive and I would like very much so to be with him, that also doesn't mean that I wouldn't rather have him as a friend. Thats part of why I'm so interested in him, because I see him as a sexual narrative match and as a friend match, and I think we have similar attitudes about things and that it might prove to be successful...I think it's really odd that I just said that. I wonder if relationships would be made easier if I didn't study them, but maybe it means that if i use my knowledge perhaps I can find a good one.
Okay, a lot more is going on but thats pretty much whats taking over my thoughts. haha...so much for not ranting!