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So i havent written anything in a while but i sware that this one is long, and dramatic enough to make up for it. Ok so i have finally cracked. I cant take it anymore. For the past 18 years i have not lived in the same place for more than 3 years. In the process losing pets, friends, houses, relationships, memories, everything. If you can name it, then i have had to give it up and learn to cope with it. The whole time, all that i have been grasping for was something steady. Something that would stay the same. Something that i could call my own. Almost 4 years ago i found that something in the form of a a neighbor girl. Her name is Megan, and we have been going out for almost 14 months. And i love it. It has been that something that i had been looking for, for my whole life. But then i had to make another move. To college. And now i have lost control of my emotions in the form of anxiety, but whats worse is the fact that i think i might lose the last thing that i have been holding the most dear to me. I love her more than anything, and i would do anything for her. But even though we are considered to be adults we are still having parents intervene. So i wont really get to see her for the next 4 years. I don't know what to do. Its...I don't know. I don't want to lose her. Even though we are still "young" when I'm with her I feel like i could just spend forever and a day with her. Its a comforting feeling, for the short while that it lasts. And then like a bandit in the night she is gone again. This is the way that it wall be for four years...I...just want to sit and cry.