sometimes i wish i could just sleep
so i've had a bunch of things on my mind recently, but there's one thing that's bothering me more than the others. what the fuck is wrong with people.
i've been trying to meet new people, trying to branch out and make some new friends. everytime it basically goes like this:
-i start talking to someone online (through one of our oh so wonderful social networking websites <--sarcasm)
-we eventually exchange numbers. time passes, i call them.
-we make plans to hang out.
-hanging out commences, this usually involves some sort of food or drink and talking.
-good times appear to be had (laughing, agreeing, disagreeing in a peaceful manner, debating, ect.)
-end on "we should do this again"
-time passes
-i call or message them again to see if they want to get together again and i get "i'm too busy" or "i have to do this and/or that" (basically "thanks but no thanks")
-we never message or call each other again
now i don't know if its me or them, but this seems to be a recurring pattern with people. its not gender specific either, although i would say i've been trying to meet more women than men (i have alot of guy friends already).
assuming that i'm the problem here, what the hell do people see in me? do i really come off as someone who's not that interesting or someone who's fucked up beyond recognition? i work hard, have my own hobbies, am interested in just about everything, not to mention my physique isn't half bad, i don't overpower the conversation by talking about myself the whole time, i keep a focus on the positive things, i make good grades, i'm punctual. what is there to not like about me? (that sounds really egotistical but believe me i'm anything but)
assuming it's them, what the hell is wrong with people to where they don't want a friend? if someone wants to do something with me and i honestly have something else going on i say "ah i have to (insert event here) but do you want to get together after said event/before said event/another day." that way i don't come off looking like i'm just making up some excuse not to hang out with them. why don't people talk to each other anymore? i mean have you ever wanted to go up to someone and just strike up a conversation with them, but you didn't because you didn't know anything about them? i love computers and the internet but sites like myspace, facebook, ect. are fucking human interaction up the ass with a spiked dildo. people shouldn't have to screen other peoples profiles to make sure they have something in common before they attempt conversation. my myspace profile is a joke, because one page on a website is no where near enough space to describe what i'm like in real life. myspace is great for finding new music (the reason it was created in the first place) but it does not foster friendships like so many people claim. do people honestly not want a friend to talk to, and to hang out with? who, i ask you, would not want a friend? no matter what anyone says i will never believe someone is "too busy" to hang out. you are not booked for ever second from now until your death. you may be busy, but you're not "too busy".
i've given thought to the fact that perhaps i'm giving up too early. perhaps i just need to try a little harder. i don't think i should be the only one to call, or make contact though. i mean if there is a mutual intrest between two people (not talking about dating or anything like that) shouldn't both parties attempt to make contact with each other?
i've also given thought to the fact that maybe i'm spoiled. the real friends i do have are bar none some of the best people i've ever met. they would give you the shirt off their back if you needed it. they are there and willing to talk no matter what time it is or what the issue is. they are willing to push things around to make time to hang out and have fun. they don't need to drink or do drugs to have a good time. they enjoy a wide range of activities from video games to running around in a park. if you spot them for a meal, the next time you go out to eat they'll cover you, no questions asked. they are just all around good people.
so that's what's been on my mind. i actually feel a little better now that i got it off my chest. feel free to give me your input, or even just tell me what you think of me.
i've been trying to meet new people, trying to branch out and make some new friends. everytime it basically goes like this:
-i start talking to someone online (through one of our oh so wonderful social networking websites <--sarcasm)
-we eventually exchange numbers. time passes, i call them.
-we make plans to hang out.
-hanging out commences, this usually involves some sort of food or drink and talking.
-good times appear to be had (laughing, agreeing, disagreeing in a peaceful manner, debating, ect.)
-end on "we should do this again"
-time passes
-i call or message them again to see if they want to get together again and i get "i'm too busy" or "i have to do this and/or that" (basically "thanks but no thanks")
-we never message or call each other again
now i don't know if its me or them, but this seems to be a recurring pattern with people. its not gender specific either, although i would say i've been trying to meet more women than men (i have alot of guy friends already).
assuming that i'm the problem here, what the hell do people see in me? do i really come off as someone who's not that interesting or someone who's fucked up beyond recognition? i work hard, have my own hobbies, am interested in just about everything, not to mention my physique isn't half bad, i don't overpower the conversation by talking about myself the whole time, i keep a focus on the positive things, i make good grades, i'm punctual. what is there to not like about me? (that sounds really egotistical but believe me i'm anything but)
assuming it's them, what the hell is wrong with people to where they don't want a friend? if someone wants to do something with me and i honestly have something else going on i say "ah i have to (insert event here) but do you want to get together after said event/before said event/another day." that way i don't come off looking like i'm just making up some excuse not to hang out with them. why don't people talk to each other anymore? i mean have you ever wanted to go up to someone and just strike up a conversation with them, but you didn't because you didn't know anything about them? i love computers and the internet but sites like myspace, facebook, ect. are fucking human interaction up the ass with a spiked dildo. people shouldn't have to screen other peoples profiles to make sure they have something in common before they attempt conversation. my myspace profile is a joke, because one page on a website is no where near enough space to describe what i'm like in real life. myspace is great for finding new music (the reason it was created in the first place) but it does not foster friendships like so many people claim. do people honestly not want a friend to talk to, and to hang out with? who, i ask you, would not want a friend? no matter what anyone says i will never believe someone is "too busy" to hang out. you are not booked for ever second from now until your death. you may be busy, but you're not "too busy".
i've given thought to the fact that perhaps i'm giving up too early. perhaps i just need to try a little harder. i don't think i should be the only one to call, or make contact though. i mean if there is a mutual intrest between two people (not talking about dating or anything like that) shouldn't both parties attempt to make contact with each other?
i've also given thought to the fact that maybe i'm spoiled. the real friends i do have are bar none some of the best people i've ever met. they would give you the shirt off their back if you needed it. they are there and willing to talk no matter what time it is or what the issue is. they are willing to push things around to make time to hang out and have fun. they don't need to drink or do drugs to have a good time. they enjoy a wide range of activities from video games to running around in a park. if you spot them for a meal, the next time you go out to eat they'll cover you, no questions asked. they are just all around good people.
so that's what's been on my mind. i actually feel a little better now that i got it off my chest. feel free to give me your input, or even just tell me what you think of me.