so what if green day isn't punk anymore? they still fucking rock
started reading other people's livejournal entries and realized that I don't have the patience for it right now, because I need to talk. I need to get some things out. I don't know what they are, however, so I'm just going to say whatever comes to my head:
1. my western heritage professor seems to think that he can "reach" me somehow, and I'm confused as to what this means, and I'm confused as to why people can't just leave me alone and let me do my fucking thing...
let me shuffle around, and show up when I feel like it, and discuss the things I'm interested in, and not make me do pointless assignments about bullshit...
2. I want to cut off all my hair, because it keeps getting in my way and I'm forced to flip it over my shoulder in a fucking tangled mass, and all I want to do with it is throw it into a gross bun and leave it there for days...
3. I'm pretty convinced my boss hates me and thinks I suck at my job, because whenever she's in there watching me work I start fucking up because I get nervous and because I think she hates me and thinks I suck at my job... and then other times I get the feeling that she likes me, and thinks of me as a slightly retarded, spacy girl, who needs to be cuddled and reassured and have my hand held while I do things, which annoys her a tiny bit but makes her feel motherly at the same time.
4. none of these people really fucking know me, and it annoys the shit out of me... I want to be back in massachusetts, where people know about my weirdness and I don't have to fucking explain the fact that I'm crazy all of the time.
5. I want things with pedro to work out, but I kind of want him to leave so I can sleep alone for a night or something, but the thought of him actually leaving and actually having to spend just that one night alone is very scary...
6. I go through money way too fast. I just got paid yesterday, and I'm almost down 50 dollars.
7. my parents should go to hell. they're douchebags.
8. I really want to get my nails done tomorrow before work.
9. I really want to go to the beach this weekend.
10. I want to be an art major, and take nothing but art classes, and make very cool paintings and just do that for the rest of my life, but unfortunately college requires you to learn pointless things.
11. I want someone to be awake so I can talk to them.
12. I'm going to go take tests online instead of doing my homework, which I should be using the fact that I can't sleep to do.
1. my western heritage professor seems to think that he can "reach" me somehow, and I'm confused as to what this means, and I'm confused as to why people can't just leave me alone and let me do my fucking thing...
let me shuffle around, and show up when I feel like it, and discuss the things I'm interested in, and not make me do pointless assignments about bullshit...
2. I want to cut off all my hair, because it keeps getting in my way and I'm forced to flip it over my shoulder in a fucking tangled mass, and all I want to do with it is throw it into a gross bun and leave it there for days...
3. I'm pretty convinced my boss hates me and thinks I suck at my job, because whenever she's in there watching me work I start fucking up because I get nervous and because I think she hates me and thinks I suck at my job... and then other times I get the feeling that she likes me, and thinks of me as a slightly retarded, spacy girl, who needs to be cuddled and reassured and have my hand held while I do things, which annoys her a tiny bit but makes her feel motherly at the same time.
4. none of these people really fucking know me, and it annoys the shit out of me... I want to be back in massachusetts, where people know about my weirdness and I don't have to fucking explain the fact that I'm crazy all of the time.
5. I want things with pedro to work out, but I kind of want him to leave so I can sleep alone for a night or something, but the thought of him actually leaving and actually having to spend just that one night alone is very scary...
6. I go through money way too fast. I just got paid yesterday, and I'm almost down 50 dollars.
7. my parents should go to hell. they're douchebags.
8. I really want to get my nails done tomorrow before work.
9. I really want to go to the beach this weekend.
10. I want to be an art major, and take nothing but art classes, and make very cool paintings and just do that for the rest of my life, but unfortunately college requires you to learn pointless things.
11. I want someone to be awake so I can talk to them.
12. I'm going to go take tests online instead of doing my homework, which I should be using the fact that I can't sleep to do.