Stepping back?
JOURNAL
* I awoke from a dream, not sure what to think of it. I was working in a school (with one of nieces, visiting or something) when the bell rang and the children filed into the hallways to go home. I was thinking I wanted to see my son, RILEY before he got on the bus, but as I walked I knew, I remembered he is not here. Then all I felt was sadness.
Teaching was a dream for me, and my son was my inspiration, but now I don't if I can do it. I mean I know I can do it, but emotionally I don't think I will ever be ready. I have decided to go back to school though, and am still getting things in order to that. I am assuming that my dreams are due to having the children here in the community, starting school on Wednesday. I did have a surprise today and that was to see one of my son's classmates, and we hugged first thing. I wished her well for this years semester in Middle School and to always help those who are in need as that was what my son was about.
I know GOD is helping me in all this and I need to keep trusting him and seeking him in everything I do. Keep me your prayers, Thanks.
PHYSICAL
Breakfast: coffee w/sf-creamer, 2eggs, 2wheat tst
Lunch: roast beef on 1/2 hoagie, chips, donut
Dinner: egg drop soup, mixed rice 3/4c, chow mein noodles, sesame chicken, 4 1/2 filled wonton
Snack: donut, cupcake
Exercise: AM walk=27 minutes
Journal: I know I did really bad on the food choices and at tomorrows weigh will tell me how badly I've done but also how much harder I need to work.
Daily readings: w=315.4 bs=184@6:05am
EMOTIONAL
Forgive: Myself
Journal: I just need to make a menu and stick to it.
Give: To my family, their TV time
SPIRITUAL
Prayer: Dearest Heavenly Father, I ask for forgiveness of my sins, please release me from this guilt that I may begain again quicker. Heavenly Father there is more to living than eating, but of late it seems to rule over me, it's as if my stomach is unfillable. Father I know that is not true help me to make wiser choices so that I can bring your temple back in balance, so that everything I do will be to bring you glory.
Heavenly Father, I thank you for easing my mind of worries, continue to bring comfort to us all. All this I pray in your son's name, JESUS CHRIST, Amen.
Gods Word: John 15, 16, 17
MENTAL
Appointments: None
Calls to Make: Called clinic for meds refill, called financial aid office
Letters to write/fax/email: None
Things to do: Printed files
Define the dream/ Journal: I need to keep adding those eveing walks, it makes me feel better.
DEVOTIONS
Stay on Course - Proverbs 4:25-27
Let your eyes look right on [with fixed purpose]. and let your gaze be straight before you. Consider well the path of your feet, and let all your ways be established and ordered aright. Turn not aside to the right hand or to the left; remove your foot from evil.
* I awoke from a dream, not sure what to think of it. I was working in a school (with one of nieces, visiting or something) when the bell rang and the children filed into the hallways to go home. I was thinking I wanted to see my son, RILEY before he got on the bus, but as I walked I knew, I remembered he is not here. Then all I felt was sadness.
Teaching was a dream for me, and my son was my inspiration, but now I don't if I can do it. I mean I know I can do it, but emotionally I don't think I will ever be ready. I have decided to go back to school though, and am still getting things in order to that. I am assuming that my dreams are due to having the children here in the community, starting school on Wednesday. I did have a surprise today and that was to see one of my son's classmates, and we hugged first thing. I wished her well for this years semester in Middle School and to always help those who are in need as that was what my son was about.
I know GOD is helping me in all this and I need to keep trusting him and seeking him in everything I do. Keep me your prayers, Thanks.
PHYSICAL
Breakfast: coffee w/sf-creamer, 2eggs, 2wheat tst
Lunch: roast beef on 1/2 hoagie, chips, donut
Dinner: egg drop soup, mixed rice 3/4c, chow mein noodles, sesame chicken, 4 1/2 filled wonton
Snack: donut, cupcake
Exercise: AM walk=27 minutes
Journal: I know I did really bad on the food choices and at tomorrows weigh will tell me how badly I've done but also how much harder I need to work.
Daily readings: w=315.4 bs=184@6:05am
EMOTIONAL
Forgive: Myself
Journal: I just need to make a menu and stick to it.
Give: To my family, their TV time
SPIRITUAL
Prayer: Dearest Heavenly Father, I ask for forgiveness of my sins, please release me from this guilt that I may begain again quicker. Heavenly Father there is more to living than eating, but of late it seems to rule over me, it's as if my stomach is unfillable. Father I know that is not true help me to make wiser choices so that I can bring your temple back in balance, so that everything I do will be to bring you glory.
Heavenly Father, I thank you for easing my mind of worries, continue to bring comfort to us all. All this I pray in your son's name, JESUS CHRIST, Amen.
Gods Word: John 15, 16, 17
MENTAL
Appointments: None
Calls to Make: Called clinic for meds refill, called financial aid office
Letters to write/fax/email: None
Things to do: Printed files
Define the dream/ Journal: I need to keep adding those eveing walks, it makes me feel better.
DEVOTIONS
Stay on Course - Proverbs 4:25-27
Let your eyes look right on [with fixed purpose]. and let your gaze be straight before you. Consider well the path of your feet, and let all your ways be established and ordered aright. Turn not aside to the right hand or to the left; remove your foot from evil.