I Don't Think I Can Handle Much More

[jodygurl05]

I can't describe how i feel right now, except say that i'm a mixture of depressed, upset, concerned, worried, and all the other adjectives that relate to those. My Uncle Keith and Aunt Judy fight and argue A LOT. Well, I guess my Uncle went to far this time. My Aunt Judy took off last night and no one has heard from her or seen her since she left. i don't really know what happened to cause her to leave, except they were arguing Friday night while i was there, trying to sleep. My poor cousins. Gabe is 3 and one of the most polite, sweetest babies i have ever a the joy of babysitting and knowing. JoAnna is 10 and a real sweet, hyper, beautiful little girl. I feel bad when my Aunt and Uncle argue. I hope Gabe and JoAnna don't grow up and have relationships like that. My Uncle is manic bipolar and doesn't take his meds. When he does take his meds, he drinks on them, and he's not supposed to. So he claims they don't work. He doesn't want to admit his drinking problem. If he doesn't slow down, he'll end up with the same thing my dad, his brother has: sorosis of the liver. I don't want that to happen, cuz i don't want my baby cousins to grow up w/o a father like i did. I'm finally, just this year, getting to know my dad. He's sober and clean and wants to be a part of my life now.
I'm rambling, aren't I??? Sorry all, i'm tired, but too, i dunno, to sleep.