Confusion

[jodygurl05]

I'm completely confused and depressed. I'm depressed cuz for once, I felt loved and cared for by an extremely great guy and he leaves for the air force. It's depressing because that's all i've ever wanted was to be cared for and held by a great guy and i finally get it and he's gone until Dec. 23. I'm confused because, there's this other guy who i've liked for a while who, the other night, was all over me with a hard on and the next minute, barely even looked or talked to me. i really don't know what's up with him. He's a nice guy, but some people say he's a perv or just straight up gay. which i don't think he's gay, at least i hope he's not gay. That would mean i liked, made out with, and did a sexual act(handjob) to a gay guy. I was thinking...maybe he was embarrassed afterwards. Cuz, he was completely different. I'm just trying to figure out if i did something wrong, because he certainly didn't act like i did until afterwards. why do guys have to be confusing...i mean why can't they just come out and say that we did something wrong if we did. Cuz i know that i would say it if it were me in his place. i dunno, maybe i'm looking too much into this.
So i don't have to do Physical therapy anymore. my doc told me today that i'm good to play golf and to go tubing~! YAY~! i have full use of my left arm and wrist again. It still hurts sometimes, which sucks. and i still don't have my full grip back, but i can't complain because i can bend it and use it again~!
Still trying to find a job...anyone hiring???
Well, i'm gonna go watch the tube...HEHE...if anyone can help me out with my confusion problem...let me know by leaving a comment...please.