I dont believe it....
ok, so im talking to a friend today, and she tells me that my ex, had wanted her to tell me that, everytime I missed her, and everytime I hurt or got sad thinking about her....that I deserved to feel that way, because of what I put her through. Now, im not really saddened or hurt by this, so much as I am in ju st a total shock that brittany would be able to be so downright cruel to me. Doesnt she fucking realize all the bullshit and heartache, and pain that she put me through for a little over a whole fucking year...its like, my god brittany...grow up. Yes, I will admit, what I did that finalyl caused her dad to say enough is enough, was very fucked up, and would have ended most serious adult relationships, but for damn near 2 years, I treated her like a princess....I tried so hard to make her happy..I tried so hard to give her what she wanted to feel better....and she always got mad at me, always would get pissy with me....ruined my fucking 18th birthday, and my highschool graduation night....and through all of it...even when I was at my breaking point...I still tried so hard to just love her and be there for her.....so what I treated her like I was sick of being around her for oh say about...2 months...so for her to say I DESERVE to feel the way I feel over losing her, that I deserve to feel pain, and suffering, for the (in comparison) tiny ammount of heartache I put her through.....GROW UP BRITTANY. Anyway, fuck it, im done with her, before today, I wanted to be done with her, wanted to just step back and have nothing to do with her....wanted to never see her again...but now...as of this day...I think....rather I know that I can do those things. Brittany, I wouldnt treat a dog the way you treated me, I take comfort in knowing im the bigger person though....because for teh rest of my life, I wont want anything for you, but the fullfilment of the desires of your heart, I never want you to be anything but happy...in all you do in life....I only hope one day that you can get over it...and not seemingly hate me. *sighs* I know you wont read this, but I really do want you to be happy britt....I love you. Goodbye.