don't know if it counts yet
so little bit and i are in NY; got here last night after an epic day of moving, cleaning and wedding, then an epic day of travel. we aren't in the new house yet, for a number of reasons, the biggest being that i am chicken shit. there is a bed down there, and the crib could be, but i don't want to sleep there until andrew gets here.
annika has been a trouper through all of this. as things moved out of the house, you could see her little brain trying to process it all. the last day someone had the brilliant idea of babyroom: all the furniture was gone and it was clean, but the only things in the room were 2 floor pillows, the last few toys to pack and a changer. and then the door was closed. leland and annika were pretty zen in there for a fair amount of time, considering.
i have spent 2 decades coming to this house for visits, and it still kind of feels like that. but with more aches and pains, inside and out. i did pretty well not losing it; saying goodbye to george, my friend of 15 years, hugging him and his baby, was more than i could handle. saying goodbyes at mike and jeff's wedding to the very first people i knew in cali, my first cali boyfriend included (NOTE: pregnant wife, due in jan. and a boy. get those small closes out of the drawers and i'll give you her email!) was surreal, and also far more emotional than it might have been, since they are all engineers. why? six courses of yummy food, all with their matching wines! sappy and sentimentality central!! however, it is odd...even with all of that wine, the toast didn't have us drinking that much.
my emotions would have been in better check if it hadn't been for the flight. we got the runway that had the SF poster child circle of the city, with a perfect view of the bay and golden gate bridges, etc. would have helped if it had been foggy and miserable.
the leaves are in full tilt here, and it is actually warm for mid-october. andrew and nathan are on their way, and this might be better and might be worse if andrew were here. it would be better, because i miss him terribly, and annika asks for him at bedtime a lot. it would be worse because he has actually been more tissue-intensive than i in this whole process.
at least i am in a place that i know some folks, and they love me...and i didn't have to drive a moving van. my mom said she cried for 300 miles driving a 20 foot manual transmission moving truck when we left illinois, and was probably a danger to everyone around her on the road.
so i'm a new yorker again, but i keep referring to back home and meaning cali. a train went by last night and i thought it was an earthquake. (i'm usually better than that, but i really was tired!) i'm really looking forward to new years in so cal and having our 10 year anniversary party; maybe i won't be tired by then!
ok, i think this time bedtime for annika will take, as she's still down. maybe i should toddle off myself.
annika has been a trouper through all of this. as things moved out of the house, you could see her little brain trying to process it all. the last day someone had the brilliant idea of babyroom: all the furniture was gone and it was clean, but the only things in the room were 2 floor pillows, the last few toys to pack and a changer. and then the door was closed. leland and annika were pretty zen in there for a fair amount of time, considering.
i have spent 2 decades coming to this house for visits, and it still kind of feels like that. but with more aches and pains, inside and out. i did pretty well not losing it; saying goodbye to george, my friend of 15 years, hugging him and his baby, was more than i could handle. saying goodbyes at mike and jeff's wedding to the very first people i knew in cali, my first cali boyfriend included (NOTE: pregnant wife, due in jan. and a boy. get those small closes out of the drawers and i'll give you her email!) was surreal, and also far more emotional than it might have been, since they are all engineers. why? six courses of yummy food, all with their matching wines! sappy and sentimentality central!! however, it is odd...even with all of that wine, the toast didn't have us drinking that much.
my emotions would have been in better check if it hadn't been for the flight. we got the runway that had the SF poster child circle of the city, with a perfect view of the bay and golden gate bridges, etc. would have helped if it had been foggy and miserable.
the leaves are in full tilt here, and it is actually warm for mid-october. andrew and nathan are on their way, and this might be better and might be worse if andrew were here. it would be better, because i miss him terribly, and annika asks for him at bedtime a lot. it would be worse because he has actually been more tissue-intensive than i in this whole process.
at least i am in a place that i know some folks, and they love me...and i didn't have to drive a moving van. my mom said she cried for 300 miles driving a 20 foot manual transmission moving truck when we left illinois, and was probably a danger to everyone around her on the road.
so i'm a new yorker again, but i keep referring to back home and meaning cali. a train went by last night and i thought it was an earthquake. (i'm usually better than that, but i really was tired!) i'm really looking forward to new years in so cal and having our 10 year anniversary party; maybe i won't be tired by then!
ok, i think this time bedtime for annika will take, as she's still down. maybe i should toddle off myself.