tanta lagrima, tanta lagrima...
it is early morning and yes, for some strange reason, i am still awake... more than likely because i don't have to work at 7am, as is normal for mondays... a random day off, yes, most random...
been hanging around eric a lot, which is quite wonderous, tho i did lose my cell phone saturday night. i'm an idiot and i am so mad at myself, but not half as mad as my padre is going to be tomorrow when i tell him. i've gotta have the account disconnected a.s.a.p. i am a raging idiot. on the good side, tho, i lost it the night me and garvey hungout with a buncha folk. she came along to meet eric, yea! it was a pretty good time for the most part, which is good. but damn - i am such an idiot, te lo juro.
disappointed me and eric didn't get to hangout tonight. he was quite worn-out from the Bills game today. i really wanted to do something and just have a good time (especially because i've got today off), but it didn't come to pass. that makes me rather disappointed. i did get to have coffee with joey and just hangout, tho, which was well worth it, but still. it sucks getting one's hopes up.
it's freakin' cold outside right now. cold and rainy. could there be anything worse aside from snow?
right now i'm tired and cold. i just sorta wanna crawl into a hole and hide for a little bit. it's so funny how work gets me so distracted that i'm normally quite cheerful and everyone thinks that i'm so nice, but in reality, i'm screaming inside. one of these days i'm just gonna freakin' lose it and then everybody's gonna see how i really am. so interesting the way we wear masks everyday... i wear them to such an extent that nobody really knows who i am anymore. hell, do i even know? hell no.
blink and you miss a beat
keep one of your eyes open at all times
think that you're on the brink?
the shit hasn't even begun to hit the fan... <--- Incubus, "Consequence"