All will be well..
A lot has happened since I posted last. I moved into a new apartment and now am living by myself(I have mixed emotions about it)and, I started nursing school. I know that doesn't sound like a lot but believe me it is... and as each day goes by, more and more changes keep popping up along the way.
I love being in nursing school. I know it's exactly where I need to be. I love my school, I love the professors, I love what I am learning, but most of all I love knowing that I have chosen the right path for myself, and that the path I have chosen for myself might one day be a blessing in someone else's life.
We talk a lot about medicine and illnesses but I have been amazed by how much we talk about the spirit and how big a part our spirit plays when a person is trying to heal and cope with a difficult illness/diagnosis. In talking about these things it has made me very aware of my spirituality, or sometimes, though it's rare, lack thereof.
My two weeks at camp this summer helped me find a comfortable place to be as far as religion, spirituality, and how I see my God. It couldn't have come at a better time. It was much needed, to say the least. Even though being at camp challenges me in more ways than I can describe, I have never once left without feeling like I'm am better person than before I came. I have you people out there to thank...
About a month ago my parents sat me down and told me that it is a possibility that they may be moving to Africa in January and living there for a year. Since my dad decided to take a leave of absence last April it has been 16 months full of ups and downs. I have seen my parents love for each other grow stronger than ever while watching them go through their most trying times as a couple. I watched my dad be filled up with confidence as he saw an opportunity of new beginnings, and beat down with disappointment after realizing again and again that it's tough out there and that nothing is as easy as someone says it's going to be. I have watched my mom work more than I have ever seen her work, while knowing that everything will work itself out in time. And now they are posed with the question- will you go and serve? With no clue of how to raise the money (~70,000), or how logistically everything will work. They have another week or so to make their decision, and trust me if they don't go it will not be because they don't want to.
I've always know on some level that the world is centered around money, but the last 2 years have made it more of a reality than I ever wanted it to be... It's a constant struggle for most people, and I find that the people that don't struggle generally take it for granted.
After being thrown into a new group of 80-85 new people I have become aware that I am one of the few 21 and single people in my class. I would say 3/4 are married, engaged, or in a long-term committed relationship that will probably result in marriage before we graduate. For the past 9 months I have not wanted or needed to be in a relationship. I have, for the most part, been okay with being single and learned a lot about myself. I have spent a lot of time getting to know myself and asking myself the big questions... and one of those is, am I happy enough with myself so that I can be happy with another person? I'm not sure of the answer... and that kind of leads me to believe that it's not time yet. How long does it really take to move on? There are no answers to those kinds of questions.
A week ago I thought I was going to lose it. Because of school, and money, and everything else I can find to worry about. Today I have a feeling that everything will work out how its supposed to.. as cliche' as that sounds..
There's more to say but I must go to bed. 6am comes early... I'll leave you with my favorite song.
The new day dawns
And I am practicing my purpose once again
It is fresh and it is fruitful if I win
But if I lose
Ooh, I don’t know.
I’ll be tired but I will turn and I will go
Only guessing till I get there then I’ll know
Oh, I will know
All the children walking home past the factories
Can see the light that’s shining in my window as I write this song to you
And all the cars running fast along the interstate
Can feel the love that radiates, illuminating what I know is true
All will be well
Even after all the promises you’ve broken to yourself
All will be well
You can ask me how but only time will tell
The winter’s cold
But the snow still lightly settles on the trees
And a mess is still a moment I can seize until I know
That all will be well
Even though sometimes this is hard to tell
And the fight is just as frustrating as hell
All will be well
All the children walking home past the factories
Can see the light that’s shining in my window as I write this song to you
And all the cars running fast along the interstate
Can feel the love that radiates, illuminating what I know is true
All will be well
Even after all the promises you’ve broken to yourself
All will be well
You can ask me how but only time will tell
Keep it up and don’t give up and chase your dreams
And you will find
All in time
All the children walking home past the factories
Can see the light that’s shining in my window as I write this song to you
And all the cars running fast along the interstate
Can feel the love that radiates, illuminating what I know is true
All will be well
Even after all the promises you’ve broken to yourself
All will be well
You can ask me how but only time will tell
All will be well
Even after all the promises you’ve broken to yourself
All will be well
You can ask me how but only time will tell.
You can ask me how but only time will tell.
I love being in nursing school. I know it's exactly where I need to be. I love my school, I love the professors, I love what I am learning, but most of all I love knowing that I have chosen the right path for myself, and that the path I have chosen for myself might one day be a blessing in someone else's life.
We talk a lot about medicine and illnesses but I have been amazed by how much we talk about the spirit and how big a part our spirit plays when a person is trying to heal and cope with a difficult illness/diagnosis. In talking about these things it has made me very aware of my spirituality, or sometimes, though it's rare, lack thereof.
My two weeks at camp this summer helped me find a comfortable place to be as far as religion, spirituality, and how I see my God. It couldn't have come at a better time. It was much needed, to say the least. Even though being at camp challenges me in more ways than I can describe, I have never once left without feeling like I'm am better person than before I came. I have you people out there to thank...
About a month ago my parents sat me down and told me that it is a possibility that they may be moving to Africa in January and living there for a year. Since my dad decided to take a leave of absence last April it has been 16 months full of ups and downs. I have seen my parents love for each other grow stronger than ever while watching them go through their most trying times as a couple. I watched my dad be filled up with confidence as he saw an opportunity of new beginnings, and beat down with disappointment after realizing again and again that it's tough out there and that nothing is as easy as someone says it's going to be. I have watched my mom work more than I have ever seen her work, while knowing that everything will work itself out in time. And now they are posed with the question- will you go and serve? With no clue of how to raise the money (~70,000), or how logistically everything will work. They have another week or so to make their decision, and trust me if they don't go it will not be because they don't want to.
I've always know on some level that the world is centered around money, but the last 2 years have made it more of a reality than I ever wanted it to be... It's a constant struggle for most people, and I find that the people that don't struggle generally take it for granted.
After being thrown into a new group of 80-85 new people I have become aware that I am one of the few 21 and single people in my class. I would say 3/4 are married, engaged, or in a long-term committed relationship that will probably result in marriage before we graduate. For the past 9 months I have not wanted or needed to be in a relationship. I have, for the most part, been okay with being single and learned a lot about myself. I have spent a lot of time getting to know myself and asking myself the big questions... and one of those is, am I happy enough with myself so that I can be happy with another person? I'm not sure of the answer... and that kind of leads me to believe that it's not time yet. How long does it really take to move on? There are no answers to those kinds of questions.
A week ago I thought I was going to lose it. Because of school, and money, and everything else I can find to worry about. Today I have a feeling that everything will work out how its supposed to.. as cliche' as that sounds..
There's more to say but I must go to bed. 6am comes early... I'll leave you with my favorite song.
The new day dawns
And I am practicing my purpose once again
It is fresh and it is fruitful if I win
But if I lose
Ooh, I don’t know.
I’ll be tired but I will turn and I will go
Only guessing till I get there then I’ll know
Oh, I will know
All the children walking home past the factories
Can see the light that’s shining in my window as I write this song to you
And all the cars running fast along the interstate
Can feel the love that radiates, illuminating what I know is true
All will be well
Even after all the promises you’ve broken to yourself
All will be well
You can ask me how but only time will tell
The winter’s cold
But the snow still lightly settles on the trees
And a mess is still a moment I can seize until I know
That all will be well
Even though sometimes this is hard to tell
And the fight is just as frustrating as hell
All will be well
All the children walking home past the factories
Can see the light that’s shining in my window as I write this song to you
And all the cars running fast along the interstate
Can feel the love that radiates, illuminating what I know is true
All will be well
Even after all the promises you’ve broken to yourself
All will be well
You can ask me how but only time will tell
Keep it up and don’t give up and chase your dreams
And you will find
All in time
All the children walking home past the factories
Can see the light that’s shining in my window as I write this song to you
And all the cars running fast along the interstate
Can feel the love that radiates, illuminating what I know is true
All will be well
Even after all the promises you’ve broken to yourself
All will be well
You can ask me how but only time will tell
All will be well
Even after all the promises you’ve broken to yourself
All will be well
You can ask me how but only time will tell.
You can ask me how but only time will tell.