thinking...
yesterday was senior night for softball...
the time is almost here where they leave.... and we step up
god we are going to be seniors...
i dont know why but its almost scary to even think about it, but in less then a month we are... i cant help but to think about the future. whats going to become of us 10 years down the road? we say that we want to do so much, but how many of us will actually achieve our highest dreams? is this the time of our life where we embrace our dreams? im scared that once we graduate we grow up. reality comes. and we will grow old always wondering what if i had done this... would things be different?
thats my biggest fear.regreting what i never did...
i dont want to be in a position 10 years down the road where i regret not doing something out of fear....
i dont want to squish my dreams because they seem too far out of reach. i want to go to africa for a year to do chairty work. i want to live in australlia and england. i want to climb a mountain. i want to fly out somewhere out of state to see a concert. i want to drive to some decolate place where its nothing but rolling hills and watch the night sky. i want to just buy a plane ticket and go to mexico for a weekend getaway. i want to learn how to scuba dive. i want to skydive.
i want to be able to tell my kids of experiances where i forgot fear and lived in the moment... and never forgot it.
i dont want fear to drive me....
sorry if you cant understand that... it makes sense to me....