god damn
today was fun, woke up went to the beach with dakota and ashley chilled went to blimpies that was sooooo yummay. yet again a fablous time chilling with that girl named ashley! tehehehe shes so cute :)
so then i came home and ate something i dont quite remember what though i think a banana then juliet came over and we went running and attempted to do speed n agility training, but that didnt work too well we ended up goofing off and leaving early cuz billifer wanted to chill an what not.so we run home an right when we get to my house bill shows up i didnt even get to shower its kinda nasty but meh his choice not mine!ne ways we watched fifth element ashley an juliet had to leave at the start though that sucked! so then bill rubbed my back for me an calla played with my hair, lets just say i was totally relaxed for that movie hahahah i almost fell asleep my two favorite things going on at the same time it made me feel special!:)
so heres where i get fucked, i think i MIGHT have feelings for bill but i dono and then tonight when we were watching the fifth element i was stupid and started to cuddle with him an he held my hand so now im like SHIT not again...i need to figure out what to do soon cuz i dont wanna hurt his feelings AGAIN in the same summer, oh well atleast this time he didnt try to kiss me...thou i kinda wanted to kiss him... ahhhhhh fuck i dont know i just dont know!! this is why i chose to stay single i lead ppl on too much an then i cant figure out my feelings b4 i hurt ppl damn but i do want a BF now.... i dono if im liking bill bcuz i like him or bcuz i like knowing that he could be a boyfriend if i wanted....
im off to bed to try and figure things out once an for all ttyl lyl sweet dreams
so then i came home and ate something i dont quite remember what though i think a banana then juliet came over and we went running and attempted to do speed n agility training, but that didnt work too well we ended up goofing off and leaving early cuz billifer wanted to chill an what not.so we run home an right when we get to my house bill shows up i didnt even get to shower its kinda nasty but meh his choice not mine!ne ways we watched fifth element ashley an juliet had to leave at the start though that sucked! so then bill rubbed my back for me an calla played with my hair, lets just say i was totally relaxed for that movie hahahah i almost fell asleep my two favorite things going on at the same time it made me feel special!:)
so heres where i get fucked, i think i MIGHT have feelings for bill but i dono and then tonight when we were watching the fifth element i was stupid and started to cuddle with him an he held my hand so now im like SHIT not again...i need to figure out what to do soon cuz i dont wanna hurt his feelings AGAIN in the same summer, oh well atleast this time he didnt try to kiss me...thou i kinda wanted to kiss him... ahhhhhh fuck i dont know i just dont know!! this is why i chose to stay single i lead ppl on too much an then i cant figure out my feelings b4 i hurt ppl damn but i do want a BF now.... i dono if im liking bill bcuz i like him or bcuz i like knowing that he could be a boyfriend if i wanted....
im off to bed to try and figure things out once an for all ttyl lyl sweet dreams