if i had known...
3 years ago.... if i were told how my life would play out from then until now i would have changed everything. i would have fought for you. i would have fought harder to keep my friendships. i would have fought for myself. i would have fought for the life that i had.
have i really changed this much in 3 years? it seems as if just yesterday i was still in junior high living what my dream was. at the time it seemed right. everyday i try to convince myself that it was the right thing to do. why is it that im doing this, why is it that i torture myself with the what ifs, why is it that i cant just fucking move on?
i try. i think im over you and then something happens. i dont want you back. i want the comfort the safety, i want how i was. i want these three years back.
if i could have them back i would do anything and everything to change what happened. i would do anything and everything to protect you and my friends. i wouldnt let us all drift like we have.
i wouldnt live the life that i have now..... i am my own nightmare and i dont know how i will ever wake up
i want these past three years back but i cant have them and now im living with the conciquence. thats what lifes all about...you make a decision and it forever alters how everything else plays out. there is one decision that i want so badly that i wont have to live for the conciquence.
have i really changed this much in 3 years? it seems as if just yesterday i was still in junior high living what my dream was. at the time it seemed right. everyday i try to convince myself that it was the right thing to do. why is it that im doing this, why is it that i torture myself with the what ifs, why is it that i cant just fucking move on?
i try. i think im over you and then something happens. i dont want you back. i want the comfort the safety, i want how i was. i want these three years back.
if i could have them back i would do anything and everything to change what happened. i would do anything and everything to protect you and my friends. i wouldnt let us all drift like we have.
i wouldnt live the life that i have now..... i am my own nightmare and i dont know how i will ever wake up
i want these past three years back but i cant have them and now im living with the conciquence. thats what lifes all about...you make a decision and it forever alters how everything else plays out. there is one decision that i want so badly that i wont have to live for the conciquence.