What.... TheFuck
/sigh
Alright, today its been pretty mellow for me until about 4 hours or so ago. I started talking to Matt, a close friend since 2nd grade, again. First time we talked in a little while. it was kool, we got all caught up and everything and I was talking to Josie as well. Josie and I finallizes spring lake beach plans for letter on today and she sent me more of her story before signing off. Than Colby and I talked a little bit decussed somethings. In the middle of colby and my convo matt called me bac crying, he didnt talk long... just wanted to ask me one simple Q thn had to go comfort Jess for some reason. I continued talking to Colby and we were able to answer a few of the lingering Qs. When my comp decided to freeze and refuse to use FB chat Matt called me up again. This is the "OH JEEZ WHAT THE FUCK" of the centry. the first thing out of his mouth is "I want you. I need you. Will you please take me back?" WTF?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?! Alright we go with out talking for a little bit because he stopped putting money on the cell phone I bought him. Now out of the blue we talk for about 3 hours total and now he wants me back?!
Heres the whole story about Mathew and myself. http://kayladaflirt.deviantart.com/art/From-The-Start-87605131 . That was my memior for this year. it was about him and my feelings towards him for the most part. After I wrote the Memior Mathew and I began to date... neither of us is really sure what happend but for some reason it did not work out. We broke up mutually and he went back to Jess.
Could he have picked a worse timing to realize his feelings for me? I mean, I am working on getting over Colby.... But i'm not yet! I mean I am becoming indeffernt yes, but I am sooooo not readdy to move on.. never the less get into another relationship!!! /sigh. I must admit though... my feelings are rather conflicting. I've known matt for the majority of my life, well enough he does not do things on a whim.... he thinks them through first... and to be honest it was soo good to hear his voice again, I've really missed him. If this was different.. if i thought i was ready, if i had moved on, if i did not just get emotionaly torn apart I know that I would have said yes. If the recent phiasco did not exist... but it does. I told Matt this and he understands... We are going to hang out some time this month with the old gang hopefully. /sigh. I just really needed to type this all out. I still really like Colby... and I am not completely over him yet but I do still have the lingering feelings for my Matt.... UGH!!!! /sigh... what do you think I should do? It really will not change my mind or make my decission.. i'm too stuborn for that.... I just want to know what you would do in my shoes. ~Kk~
Alright, today its been pretty mellow for me until about 4 hours or so ago. I started talking to Matt, a close friend since 2nd grade, again. First time we talked in a little while. it was kool, we got all caught up and everything and I was talking to Josie as well. Josie and I finallizes spring lake beach plans for letter on today and she sent me more of her story before signing off. Than Colby and I talked a little bit decussed somethings. In the middle of colby and my convo matt called me bac crying, he didnt talk long... just wanted to ask me one simple Q thn had to go comfort Jess for some reason. I continued talking to Colby and we were able to answer a few of the lingering Qs. When my comp decided to freeze and refuse to use FB chat Matt called me up again. This is the "OH JEEZ WHAT THE FUCK" of the centry. the first thing out of his mouth is "I want you. I need you. Will you please take me back?" WTF?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?! Alright we go with out talking for a little bit because he stopped putting money on the cell phone I bought him. Now out of the blue we talk for about 3 hours total and now he wants me back?!
Heres the whole story about Mathew and myself. http://kayladaflirt.deviantart.com/art/From-The-Start-87605131 . That was my memior for this year. it was about him and my feelings towards him for the most part. After I wrote the Memior Mathew and I began to date... neither of us is really sure what happend but for some reason it did not work out. We broke up mutually and he went back to Jess.
Could he have picked a worse timing to realize his feelings for me? I mean, I am working on getting over Colby.... But i'm not yet! I mean I am becoming indeffernt yes, but I am sooooo not readdy to move on.. never the less get into another relationship!!! /sigh. I must admit though... my feelings are rather conflicting. I've known matt for the majority of my life, well enough he does not do things on a whim.... he thinks them through first... and to be honest it was soo good to hear his voice again, I've really missed him. If this was different.. if i thought i was ready, if i had moved on, if i did not just get emotionaly torn apart I know that I would have said yes. If the recent phiasco did not exist... but it does. I told Matt this and he understands... We are going to hang out some time this month with the old gang hopefully. /sigh. I just really needed to type this all out. I still really like Colby... and I am not completely over him yet but I do still have the lingering feelings for my Matt.... UGH!!!! /sigh... what do you think I should do? It really will not change my mind or make my decission.. i'm too stuborn for that.... I just want to know what you would do in my shoes. ~Kk~