The wind is blowing so strong...
I cant help it, sometimes I get so wrapped up in my own world I dont realize whats happening around me. My grandma is really sick, she has some type of cancer. I havent seen her in a yr and I hate that feeling that we lost connection. Im obviously not a child anymore, but I want to be with her, shes old but shes so strong... everytime something bad happened she would whisper in my ear that everything would be ok, the angels were on our side... now she needs them on her side. I beleive they are...
Last night I was at Alex's, he has this huge balcony, just beautiful, you can see every star perfectly! So I was out there all night just gazing at the stars. I wished on so many... I dont know whats going to happen... Sometimes I wish I was still a little kid with not a worry in the world. [Sighs]
Alex really loves me I can see it in his eyes and I feel it in his touch. Hes never ever let me down and I know he never would. So why do I shy away from him at times... I guess its cause im scared of losing him. We get into these arguments when I do this, and it always ends in tears. Alex has marked my soul for life, and I strongly believe we are meant to be together. So acting like I do sometimes has to stop... I know it does.
All these sob stories, but damn I had an awesome weekend! Starting with friday... I went to a baby shower for my friend at work. How purtyy! Shes having a girl! Girls are so fun! I had so much fun helping her register last week too! NOT it was a nightmare! hehe... j/k. It was really cool, one of my friends let us use her home to throw it, such a beautiful home indeed. We decorated like crazy and the results were so pretty! It didnt cost as much as I thought it was going to. The cake was done by another lady at work who is a bad ass cake maker! lol, she did a great job! No charge was the best part! She got everything she registered for plus way more. The house was packed and this is a huge house! Man it was fun, so anyone having a baby soon??? hehe... Finished the night up with Alex... it was a perfect ending as always is with us. We finished the Italian job and went to sleep. ;) Saturday I went shopping with my sister and my best friend Kristina. We went to West Oaks mall, stopped at every store on the way down Westheimer. Spent alot but it was fun. Plus I finally got my settlement for my accident a yr and a half ago! $$$$$$ enough to spend and save and spend some more! It wasnt about the money but I was rear ended and hurt for a few months, Gods honest truth. My brother who was still 12 at the time broke his arm. Plus I had those $4500 medical bills on my credit report. Im glad its over. I feel very lucky to even be alive. Anyway Duran Duran Sat. night was awesome! I love the 80's! All the super bowl hype made it seem like NYC this weekend but it was all good. Heading to Cali Friday! Going to have a blast... Hope to meet alot of new people!
Thats all for now <3 <3 <3