My Smile fades quickly....Like your love for -Me-
Joshua Johansen,
I wish you still loved me...I wish that we hadn't changed. I wish I could find someone just like you. I wish that you still loved me. From the bottom of my heart. I miss you soo much. I miss what we had. I thought that -we- could make it through everything. But I guess your love for me wasn't as strong as you claimed it to be. I can't move on. I've tried. But I can't get over the fact that you dont love me anymore. And that you never think of me. And that it doesn't make you the least bit sad to know that you will never want *us* to be ever again. I don't know where we went wrong. But I love you, always will. With all my heart. I wasn't lieing like you were. I said forever, and forever I mean. I wish I could depend on you, like I once did. You were everything to me. And still are. I love you more than life its self. And I would give everything and anything to have you love me again. I would give my life. But I know its not worth much. And I'm sorry that it isnt. I know you dont care about me like you used to. Just everything is soo fucked up since you've gone, and left me here. Alone to face this cruel cruel world alone. I wish that you wouldn't have left me. I know I fucked up a lot. I just cared for you soo much. And I still do. Alway will. I just wish that you could understand exactly how much you mean to me. I will always be here for you, through thick and thin. I wish I would stop trying to fool myself into thinking that you do still love me, and that your just lieing to me when you tell me that you don't. I wish you would just tell me the truth. The straight truth about what you feel about me. And that you would stop running around in circles. I wish you would chase me again. And want only me. Everytime I'm with someone, I close my eyes, and just wish as hard as I can that it is you. But it never works. Won't you see that I am madly in love with you, and ONLY you. Please stop playing around, and come back to me. Like we are ment to be. I love you.