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So...as I sit here and listen to him play God with a bunch of Sims characters and control every movement of their electronic lives, I can't help but think. Is our every move just a point and a click for some power bigger than us....even if it's not God. If this power wanted us to fall in love at random, does he/she just pick someone at random and have the two talk until they become friends, then best friends, then suddenly have hearts burst out of their head and they are in love? Can real life really be played out through something as simple minded as The Sims?
Then comes the question of do you believe in pre-destination? Where every move you make is strategically planned out and you can't alter what is happening. Is pre-destination something that is good? I strangely find comfort in knowing that every detail of my future is planned out and no matter what decisions I make in the future it is exactly what was planned. Which leads me to believe that essentially you can not make a wrong decision because even if there are consequences to your "wrong" decision, you were meant to make that "wrong" decision. Which goes back to the point of it wasn't "wrong" per say, it was right but it had harsh consequences.
I was asked last night, why feelings so strong as "love" can just change or go away. The fact is that I'm the complete wrong person to ask that question to. Because I don't believe the feeling of "love" ever goes away. There will always be a small part of me that loves Jimmy, as horrible and as badly as I want it to go away it was always be there. Trust me, if I could make it go away then I would. But the truth is, if he called me today and said that he needed me I'd be right there. When he says he misses me, just for a millasecond my heart stops, and then reality and memories sink in and I'm snapped out of it. Sometimes I just wish he'd fall of the face of the earth, but other times I don't because he's there to talk to, which is kinda nice. So it's not necessarily a bad thing nor a good thing it just kinda lingers there. Same with Kyle. There will always be a special place in my heart for Kyle. He became someone that I loved very deeply and he taught me many things that are life long lessons, which I am still trying to grasp right now. He's still one of my best friends and probably will know more about me than most of the people who read this, which at the moment I don't think is many.
If every move in my life has already been pre-decided, then why was I so upset about Kyle and I breaking up? And why does this one guy make me so nervous? It's already decided what's going to happen regaurdless of what I do, so why worry or be nervous? Is it because deep down I know that life isn't as simple as pre-destination? I've always been told that in life there are right and wrong, so that must mean that my decisions matter, therefore making me nervous and jittery when I see this guy. The words out of my mouth matter to what he says next and ultimately to how our conversation goes. Why do I get nervous, if I want to believe in pre-destination. Wouldn't it be nice to never have to worry about if you're making a "wrong" decision?
Simplicity is beautiful...in every way.
Then comes the question of do you believe in pre-destination? Where every move you make is strategically planned out and you can't alter what is happening. Is pre-destination something that is good? I strangely find comfort in knowing that every detail of my future is planned out and no matter what decisions I make in the future it is exactly what was planned. Which leads me to believe that essentially you can not make a wrong decision because even if there are consequences to your "wrong" decision, you were meant to make that "wrong" decision. Which goes back to the point of it wasn't "wrong" per say, it was right but it had harsh consequences.
I was asked last night, why feelings so strong as "love" can just change or go away. The fact is that I'm the complete wrong person to ask that question to. Because I don't believe the feeling of "love" ever goes away. There will always be a small part of me that loves Jimmy, as horrible and as badly as I want it to go away it was always be there. Trust me, if I could make it go away then I would. But the truth is, if he called me today and said that he needed me I'd be right there. When he says he misses me, just for a millasecond my heart stops, and then reality and memories sink in and I'm snapped out of it. Sometimes I just wish he'd fall of the face of the earth, but other times I don't because he's there to talk to, which is kinda nice. So it's not necessarily a bad thing nor a good thing it just kinda lingers there. Same with Kyle. There will always be a special place in my heart for Kyle. He became someone that I loved very deeply and he taught me many things that are life long lessons, which I am still trying to grasp right now. He's still one of my best friends and probably will know more about me than most of the people who read this, which at the moment I don't think is many.
If every move in my life has already been pre-decided, then why was I so upset about Kyle and I breaking up? And why does this one guy make me so nervous? It's already decided what's going to happen regaurdless of what I do, so why worry or be nervous? Is it because deep down I know that life isn't as simple as pre-destination? I've always been told that in life there are right and wrong, so that must mean that my decisions matter, therefore making me nervous and jittery when I see this guy. The words out of my mouth matter to what he says next and ultimately to how our conversation goes. Why do I get nervous, if I want to believe in pre-destination. Wouldn't it be nice to never have to worry about if you're making a "wrong" decision?
Simplicity is beautiful...in every way.